Blurred Perfection. 45: Excitement.

Hey ladies! I have been a bit busy lately, so I haven't been posting as much, but trust me... I'll be posting way more often now. I've been editing each chapter and making them longer and better. I hope you like this story, i've worked hard on it!



*YOUR P.O.V.*

July went by fast and I only saw Justin when he was in the area. It was August 2nd now and Justin was sitting in my living room, watching TV. I loved just waking up each morning and knowing that he was there with me; protecting me, loving me. 

He had a concert later tonight and he wanted to spend some time with me before leaving after. I sat next to him as we watched episodes of Ridiculousness, one after another. We laughed and laughed at every video. There was a marathon on, right before the next season started. Somehow, this show never failed to make us laugh. 

"Hey look! It's you!" I said, pointing at the TV as the episode with him came up. 

That was one of my favorite because it was just so funny how Justin acted. He was adorable, and it was about a year ago when he was 18. 

"You look so nervous and little!" I said. 

"I gotta admit, I was a bit nervous that day." he said putting his arm around my shoulders and pulling me closer. 

I giggled as we watched the whole episode. When it was over, I reached over Justin and grabbed the remote to turn the TV off. 

"What are you doing?" he asked me. 

"I wanna talk to you about some things." I said sitting up and turning towards him. 

He sat and waited for my reply. I just randomly thought that we could talk, because Justin had been in the whole music business longer than I had. So he'd understand a lot more than me. 

"Do you ever just want to give up?" I asked. 

"What do you mean?" 

"Ya know. Just give everything up and go back to Stratford to live a normal life like a 19 year old would?" I asked. 

He thought about it and I waited in silence for him to talk again. Maybe it wasn't an appropriate question, but he was the only one that I could ask; the only one who would understand. 

"I've thought about it. But I know that it would hurt over millions of people to just see all of my hard work thrown away, so I push those thoughts to the side and think happy thought.." he said. 

I moved closer and laid down putting my head in his lap. He stroked my hair and I closed my eyes. I felt a bit more comforted, maybe I should be thinking about more happy thoughts. 

"Have you been thinking about that lately?" he asked me. 

"Well yeah. I always grew up and wanted to go to graduate from high school and go to college and settle down with the man of my dreams... And have kids and let them grow up living a normal life. No fame, no money, well money- just not this. I wanted to live in a small town, out in the country on a farm. Where I come home from work and I'm really stressed out, but my family makes it better. Now I know that I can never have that. Because even if I do give it up, there'll still be those people who remember who I am." I explained. 

I told him everything and just spilled it all out. I could tell that he understood completely. I looked up in his eyes and he smiled a weak smile. I took a deep breath and stared off into the distance. 

"I'm sorry. I want you to be happy, but if you're having a hard time, you can come to me. I know that you want that life, and I want you to live that life. It may not happen exactly like that, but we can try to get pretty close." he said. 

"We can try? So you mean that you want to be the man of my dreams?" 

"Aren't I already?" he said. 

We both laughed and I playfully hit his chest. He made me feel a lot better. I laid in his arms as he sang to me. Hitting every note exactly on without any mistakes. 

Soon he had to leave for the concert, and I had to get off of him. I was really comfortable, but nothing lasts forever, right? 

Justin kissed me goodbye and shut the door behind him. I sighed and sat down on the couch, turning on the TV and watching the news and celeb drama. Justin wanted me to come to his concert, but I wasn't sure if I was going to make it. I was a bit tired for some reason, but I was still debating whether to go, or not... 

After an hour or so, it was already 7:30pm. I decided to just go, because I was bored out of my mind, so I called Fredo and told him to meet me. I got dressed in this outfit before leaving and heading to the concert: http://www.polyvore.com/bluee/set?id=74675804. 

I left my house, locking the door behind me and heading to my car. One thing I would never get over, would have to be the cameras. I mean could the paparazzi's who followed me at least turn their flash off? 

I got to the arena within a few minutes and I headed inside, avoiding the girls outside as best I could. When I got backstage, Justin was out there already dancing. Fredo and I sat backstage talking and watching him out on stage. 

"Why don't you go out there?" he suggested. 

"Excuse me? Did I hear you right?" I said, giving him a funny face. 

"Yeah, don't you know this routine?" 

"Yeah, but-" 

"Go out there and dance with him. He won't even notice!" Fredo said. 

"Are you sure about this?" I said, getting a nod in return. 

I quickly put on one of the dancers outfits and walked on stage. The crowd and the Bieberettes, Justin's dancers,  noticed right away that it was me, but Justin still had no idea. He finished up singing Take You and walked out towards the crowd on the platform. He was talking to the crowd, but obviously he wasn't listening very well. 

"What was that?" he asked. 

"Look behind you!" the girls yelled. 

"Behind me?" he said turning around. 

I stood back with the dancers and started walking forward. The girls gave me a little push and I walked right up to Justin and smiled at him. 

"How long have you been dancing with me?" he asked with a smile. 

"Only throughout like, the whole song!..." I said with a laugh. 

"You're at every concert I don't expect you to be!" he said laughing along with me. 

After our little chat, I walked off stage and let him continue. He finished the concert with ease and I applauded behind the lights and fog. 

After the concert, I had to go home and Justin was off to his next concert. His tour was ending soon and I was excited, probably more excited than I should have been.... 

FACT:

In the My World Tour, every OLLG received a bouquet of roses, one of them was made of plastic and said: "This is for a lifetime."

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-Ana.