Not In It For The Fame-Ch.1

I never thought that today would be the day that changed my life forever... As my best friend Lilly and I drove up to the arena where He was going to be in in just a few hours my heart raced though it also made my stomach turn because we didn't have tickets to get  in and see him and have even the slightest chance to be the ollg. We drove past the huge building to the back were all we have to do is sit and wait for Justin and his crew to show up before the show, so that we can at least see him and possibly get a picture...if we're lucky. 

"So y/n what are you gonna do if we actually get to talk to him and take a picture with him!!"

"Idk maybe pass out!"

 "Why would you pass out?!then you would miss talking to him!"

 "It probably wont even come up,so its not an issue, I wouldn't get your hopes up because the odds of us actually getting to talk to him aren't exactly in our favor." 

"Don't be a bitch, all you have to do is Believe.."

4 and 1/2 hours of random conversations went by until finally a tweet, "@justinbieber almost concert time! b there soon (your home town)!" Lilly and I jumped out of the car so that we could ask Justin for a picture when he got out of the bus.

Just as I looked up from my phone I saw 4 huge tour busses coming our way.  One after the other they parked and lines of dancers and crew members poured out of the first 3 busses, then the last bus's door opened and there Justin Bieber was just feet in front of me, I couldn't move,speak or even think,the last thing that i remembered is his eyes connecting with mine then everything went blank.

I woke up in a simple room with only a couch,tv, and a mirror with nothing else besides a door. I got up and looked in the mirror , I looked fine besides for a red mark on my forehead and a what I could feel to be a big bump on the back of my head ,I wanted to open the door to walk out and see where I was,but I had a headache and felt a little dizzy so i didn't feel like exploring. As I sat down I could hear someone on the phone it sounded like Lilly. 

"Don't worry Y/n is fine, they brought her in and layed her down until she wakes up... after she wakes up I'll ask her if she wants to stay or not... ok i will have her call you when she wakes up..bye."

 The conversation that I just heard is only confusing me more... Who brought me in to lay down? Stay where after I wake up? Where am I anyway!? Just then Lilly popped her head in the room. 

"Your awake!"

She ran in and gave me a hug. 

"What happened? And who were you talking to? Where are we?"

"I was talking to your mom she just wanted to make sure that your ok because you fainted and hit your head on the ground..."

"What?"

"Yeah well remember when you said that you would faint if Justin Bieber talked to you...well you fainted when he looked at you and smiled. See when Justin got out of the bus he saw us then you passed out and hit your head really hard on the ground,so when Justin saw he actually ran over and tried to help you ,but you were uncaunstious . So he had some guys come and bring you into the arena and put you in this room because they wanted to make sure that you don't have a concusion."

"...So I passed out... then Justin Bieber brought me into his concert to make sure that I'm ok?"

"Yeah, and when I told him that we didn't have tickets he actually gave us some."

"I don't believe you... Why would he do that?"

"I don't know, maybe he's crazy, but I do need to go tell them that you're awake. I'll be right back."

She left leaving me alone in the room for just a few minutes until some paramedics came in and bombarded me with questions and examined my head until they determined that I was fine and that I didn't have a concusion. They said that it was just the impact that knocked me out, but it didn't cause any damage so I'm fine. They told me to be careful not to shake my head too much  the next day or two before leaving the small room. 

"So how long have I been asleep for?"

"Like an hour and a half."

"Oh so then I haven't missed the concert!?"

"No he won't be going on for a while all of the fans are just getting here, Justin wants to see you so do you want to go see him?"

"Really? Ok!"

We walked down a hallway to a door that led us outside to a balcony over looking the city and I could see his siloete standing,looking over the view. (dressed like this) 

"Hey she's awake!"

Lilly said pushing me towards him as he turned around. He ran up to me and gave me a hug then stepped back and looked over me with a smile.

"I'm sooo glad that you're ok, I was really worried about you cause you fell pretty hard."

I didn't know what to say...

"Yeah...I'm ok...not to sound rude,but what-...I mean why do you care?"

"Why wouldn't I?"

"I don't know, it's just hard to believe that this is really happening and that you really ran over to me when I fainted. And that I'm actually meeting you and talking to you."

"I understand,but don't worry you will get used to it and ill be just another regular friend of yours. But of course not totally regular.."

"You're my friend?"

"Yeah,well you're cute and seem nice. You seem like a cool person to be around so why not?"

He smiled with a cute little half smirk then grabbed my hand and waved Lilly to follow us to the edge of the balcony. We could see all of the thousands of girls arriving at the arena covered in Bieber gear, it was amazing.

"This is so cool."

Lilly shook her head in agreement.

"Yeah, it's great because I know that I have to many great belieber's that support me even if I make a mistake,I try to be the best I can be but you know growing up you make a couple mistakes. So it's so great that I have fans who I can lean on for support... 'Well I have to go rehearse a little bit,so feel free to do whatever,just make sure you have your passes on."

I looked at my pass hanging around my neck,it was all black with the word 'CREW' written in white.

"Will do,thank you so much Justin."

It's so crazy how Lilly can just talk to him! That's something that I'm going to have to work on. I turned to Lilly.

"So what do you want to go check out?"

"The stage!"

"The stage that he is going to perform on?"

"Yeah!"

"No!  There is fans in there already! Do you want to get kicked out!?"

"Relax,we'll just walk across it really quick nobody will even notice us. Come on!!"

Lilly and I walked down to the backstage area where tons of crew members were setting things up,dancers were stretching, and security guards were watching fans closely and deniing some who were actually trying to flirt their way backstage.We walked up the stairs and straight onto the huge stage,it was incredible! Thousands of seats were pointed in my direction surrounding me completely,it made me feel like I was on top of the world. We only stood onstage for a minute then had to walk off because we didn't want anybody to notice us. We walked off stage and bumped right into someone.

"Oops I'm sorry."

I took a step back and looked up to see that I just walked into Selena Gomez...

The Second Time Around: 9.

Hey guys. There's only one chapter after this so ill post this one today and the other tomorrow morning or later tonight! Just leave some comments to let me know what you think!

Chapter 9:

May 8th, 2017

4:00pm

 

(Justin’s POV)

 

I paced the floors in my hotel and waited. I was waiting for the call from (YN), telling me that she had landed safely in Canada. I knew that it was coming, it could be any time now. Maybe I should just call myself; I mean I could just use the hotel’s phone. Yeah, okay, I’d do that. I strode over to the phone, but then I thought about it. This place is so rigged, I better not. I’ll just go back to this guy and turn myself in, instead of my family. As long as they were safe, I’d be fine.

As I drove along the highway, I tried to hold myself together. I wasn’t going to let him hurt my family; I’d rather have him hurt me. It was all because of this dumb decision I made. Why did I have to get myself in so much trouble?

“Justin, are you sure that you want to do this? It’s a big decision man.” Twist informed me.

“Bro, its fine. It’s not like anything will happen.”

I wrote my name in fine print on the bottom of the sheet of paper. What harm could it do? It’s not like this guy was asking for anything from me. He just wanted me to sign up for something, right? I couldn’t even remember, but it’s not like it matters.

When I sobered up, I had the hugest headache ever. I couldn’t even think straight because my head was pounding. I stood up slowly, regaining my balance and looking around. Twist walked in the room with some water and handing me a glass. I thanked him and we sat back down together.

“Dude, what happened?” I asked as I rubbed my temples.

“I don’t know, why don’t you ask the gang that you signed your life over to?”

I stared at him like he was crazy. I just laughed, because that never happened. I don’t recall anyone ever being here besides me and Twist.

“I’m serious,” he continued, “you signed a paper with them. I have no idea what it was about, but you might want to find out before you get yourself killed.”

“Come on man, it couldn’t have been that bad.”

“I’m gonna go. Some friendly advice from me is to call them and tell them that it was a mistake or something. I’m telling you like I said before, you’ll get yourself killed.”

He walked out of my house without turning back. I started taking his words more seriously. What happened? I immediately called them number and talked to the people. They said that it’d be more confidential to talk in person, and when they came back over, I found out what really happened while I was messed up.

“I wasn't sober; you can’t hold that against me.” I begged.

“Justin, I’m telling you now and only once, this is serious business. You owe us now, and you can’t do anything about it. You’ve been warned. We may come at the most random times, but when we do, we’ll get what we want. We wont forget about you. And what we want may never just be money, keep that in mind.”

Just as he finished his sentence, (YN) got home. I could hear her voice echoing throughout the empty house. She walked into the living room and saw me. She just stared and looked from me, to them. I wasn’t sure how to approach this now that she was back, but I knew that she’d have questions.

“I’ll find a way.”

They glared at me before turning and leaving. I moved my attention back to (YN) who was now standing just inches away from me. I didn’t comprehend anything she said until we finally sat down. I finally got my thoughts together as she asked the only question I was avoiding.

“Justin, what did you do?”

I arrived at the building and headed upstairs using the elevator. When I got to his office, I had to squeeze past the bulky guards in front of the door. God, they were so annoying about how they handled everything. Look, I wasn’t going to kill the guy, calm the fuck down. I’m just trying to get him to take my life instead, seriously.

“You’re back.” He said.

He looked up at me and smirked.

“Look, I know that I have to repay you somehow and I can’t have my family hurt, so can you just take my life instead?” I begged.

“Woah there Mr. Bieber. You won’t have to be giving me anything anymore; I’ve got everything that I want already.”

I looked at him like he was crazy. Was he dropping the deal? I felt joy inside, but I didn’t show it on the outside. I knew that if I did, it’d make me look weak.

“Let her explain.” He said.

He handed me a phone and I slowly moved it up to my ear after taking it in my hand. I listened to it ring, and after sometime, my mom answered. Wait, my mom?

“Mom?” I asked.

“Justin? Justin! Finally we’re hearing from you, where are you? And has (YN) found you yet?” she said frantically.

I could feel tears in my eyes but I blinked them away. (YN) never went with to Canada. As I pieced it all together in my head, I had to be held back once more from hitting this guy. He had (YN). But how? She should’ve gotten away with my mom perfectly fine. I dropped the phone after hearing my moms words and immediately started yelling.

“How did you find her!? Where the fuck are you keeping her?” I yelled.

“Find her? Oh Justin, I didn’t need to find her. She came to me.”

My heart sank and I stared at this guy with anger. Why would she come to him? I warned her plenty of times before about how dangerous this guy is! She should’ve never come here; she should’ve never had to put up with any of this in the first place. It was my entire fault.

“Please, just let her go.” I begged.

“She doesn’t want to be let go, Justin. She offered her life, instead of your kids, and I’m afraid that a deals a deal, and that’s it.”

“H-How long does she have?” I stuttered.

“I’ve given her a week, no more than that unless necessary. Take him to her.”

I closed my eyes to get rid of the tears. The guards let go of my arms and escorted me out of the room. Just before they closed the door, the man began to speak again.

“Oh, and Justin, you can take her home for now.”

At least this guy had some kindness left in his soul. I had to be blindfolded, so that I didn’t know exactly where they were taking me, but after some time, I knew we were there. They took the blindfold off and I saw (YN) standing by a window, staring out into the bland field. We were at a house now, somewhere out in the country obviously.

“(YN)?” my voice cracked.

She turned around slowly. Our eyes met and right away, I could see the tears in her beautiful eyes. She ran into my arms and I held her tightly against my chest. I could feel her tears soak up in my shirt, and I just wiped mine away.

“Justin, I’m so sorry. I had to do something.” She pleaded.

“Baby, you didn’t. I never wanted anything to happen to you, I’m so sorry.”

She sniffled and pulled away. I weakly smiled at her and she did the same back. This was the hardest thing in my life, seeing her so broken down like this. And it was even harder knowing that it was all because of me.

 

(Your POV)

 

The guards drove us home and I laid in Justin’s arms as we laid together in our bed. I never wanted to get up, or leave, but I knew that in just 7 short days, I’d never do this again. I swallowed hard and looked up at Justin. He was sound asleep; the crying from us both must’ve tired him out. I smiled, just seeing him at such a peaceful state. He was so handsome. I was just glad that I got the opportunity for such an amazing short life.

I slipped out of Justin’s arms quietly and headed downstairs. The twins were heading home tonight, so it’d just be us four for the next week. I decided to make a nice, late, 11:00pm dinner. I knew that the twins would go straight to sleep, but I figured that Justin would stay awake after they got home.

When I finished cooking, I just let everything cool down while I answered the door. As soon as I opened the door, the twins ran and hugged my legs. I smiled and laughed as they chanted ‘Mommy!’.

“Guess what?” I said kneeling down, “Mommy has a surprise for you two, come on.”

I bent down and grabbed both of their hands, leaving their bags down stairs by the door. We walked upstairs slowly and I told them both to be quiet as we entered mine and Justin’s room. I picked both of them up and let them stand on the foot of the bed.

“Ready?” I whispered getting nods in return.

“Daddy!” They both yelled simultaneously as they jumped on Justin.

I laughed and Justin slowly opened his eyes. He smiled widely and grabbed the both of them, tackling them with hugs and kisses. I thought that it was adorable how they acted when they saw him.

“I missed you guys!” Justin said.

He kissed both of their cheeks before getting out of bed and standing next to me. We put the kids to bed together, even though we barely got them to sleep. They were so antsy and jumpy!

“I have a surprise for you.” I said to Justin as I took his hand in mine.

“What is it?”

“You’ll see.”

I took him downstairs and made him close his eyes while I lead him to his seat. I helped him sit down, still with his eyes closed, and the look on his face was priceless. I found my spot across the table and sat down before laughing at Justin.

“Well, we are at the dinner table.” Justin implied.

“Just open your eyes silly.”

He opened his eyes and looked across the table to me before looking at the food that I had set out. For some odd reason, Justin was obsessed with my freaking spaghetti. It was so simple to make, yet he loved it. So that’s what I made, and he was obviously happy.

“You made my favorite!” he quietly yelled.

“I knew you’d like it.”

We ate while just talking about the simple things. I couldn’t exactly tell him about the twins’ birthday party, seeing they weren’t even there and neither was I. We just talked about memories and brought up random stories from our past.

When we finished eating, we washed the dishes together and then went upstairs to our bed. I laid in Justin’s arms yet again, thinking. It was hard to just lay there and act like everything was okay, when we both knew that it wasn’t. Justin could sense my stress, and I knew that because he spoke up about it.

“Baby, just try not to think about it. I know it sounds impossible, but just think, the twins turned three today, our babies are getting so old.”

I smiled, but my smile faded into tears. Our babies turned three, and I’d never live to see another one of their birthdays. It broke my heart, and I had no clue what we could possibly tell them after I was gone. They’d cry and whine for weeks, heck, maybe even months.

“Why are you crying?” Justin asked worriedly.

“I-I’ll never get to see another one of their b-birthdays.” I stuttered.

Justin took a deep shaky breath and held me closer to his chest. I tried my best to hold in my tears, but knowing that this was my last week, was too much to handle.

The Second Time Around: 8.

I decided to cut this story short because I need a break from this blog. It will end in a few chapters, sadly, but I'll be back in about a week with a brand new story! I hope you guys don't mind, but I'm just so busy and I don't have any time at the end of July and in the beginning of August to post. If anyone wants to join his blog and write their own stories, feel free to email me. I'll accept every single person, I just need part of one of your stories and your in!(: love you all very much!

Chapter 8:

May 8th, 2017

12:00pm

 

I sat on the couch while Pattie willingly set up for the twins’ party. I begged her to let me help, but she said no. She wanted me to relax, because we both knew that I was stressed a lot right now. I told her, and I quote, ‘you’re stressed too, I mean he is your son.’ And she said ‘it doesn’t matter, you have kids with him, it’s harder for you.’ Ugh, sometimes she was so stubborn.

I was really stressed, that was for sure, because I still hadn’t heard from Justin. How was I supposed to be okay with this? I mean it was already their birthday and Justin still wasn’t here. The police were searching for him, finally, but that didn’t help much with my worrying. The only thing that made me smile was looking at the twins and seeing a resemblance to Justin. They were so cute, just like their dad. It made me really sad actually, it sucked.

Pattie even went upstairs to dress the twins while I ‘relaxed’. I didn’t want to relax, I wanted to do something! That’s when I heard the doorbell ring. It’s like my thought summoned things for me… I stood up and answered the door before Pattie could; it was like a little race.

“Hey Fredo, hi Marisa. Hi cutie, how are you?” I said right away.

“Hey (YN). How are you doing? Is everything okay?” Fredo asked as he hugged me right away.

“Not at my best.”

My smile faded away and Fredo hugged me once more, squeezing me tighter. We had gotten so close over the years; I just told everyone that he was my brother. He literally was to me; he was my older brother.

“You guys can all help yourselves, everything is set up and you’re the only ones here!” I said with a smile.

“Can I talk to you?” Fredo asked me.

I nodded and his wife and little boy went inside. Pattie came downstairs with the twins and I greeted them along with Fredo before we went into a different room to talk. I heard the doorbell ring about a thousand times, hoping and praying it was Justin, but knowing that it wasn’t.

“(YN), I… I’m sorry about this all. If I knew how to help, I would.” Fredo said.

“I’m fine, really.”

He looked me in the eyes as we stood behind the bedroom door. We both knew that I wasn’t fine, and we both knew that I needed someone, someone as in Justin. Fredo grabbed me and put his arms around me. I just started crying in his arms, burying my face in his shirt. I couldn’t hold back all of these tears anymore, it was just becoming too hard.

“Everything will be okay. Justin’s fine, and I guarantee there hasn’t been a minute that’s passed while he’s been gone that he hasn’t thought about you.” Fredo comforted me.

We stood there for about 10 minutes before we were interrupted by a knock on the door. I just wanted to cry some more, but we had to get back to our party. When we came back out, there were so many people. Everyone and their kids came, it was surprising to me. There were so many little kids running around and in the bouncy house outside. It still didn’t make me feel any better to see my little girls having such a great time.

“I- I just can’t do this right now.” I said.

I turned on my heel and began heading upstairs. Pattie and Fredo yelled after me, but I just picked up my pace. I locked me and Justin’s door behind me and sat on the bed. I grabbed the picture of us from the bedside table and stared at it. Tears dripped from my cheeks onto the glass frame and I just wanted to cry even more.

I set the frame back down and stared at the ring around my finger. Maybe he left because he didn’t want to be with me anymore, and he thought that that would be the easiest way. Maybe he didn’t want to be committed anymore, at least not with me… I stopped my thoughts as I heard my phone ring. I really wasn’t up for talking, but I had to answer it just in case someone got lost on their way to our house. It was an unknown number, but I still answered it.

“Hello?” I said in my calmest voice.

“Baby, this is Justin. I need you to do me a favor and get the earliest flight back to Canada. Don’t stay here in the US, just hide away at my grandparents. Make sure no one knows that your there, just do as I say, okay? It’s them, again.”

My heart started beating quickly as I heard his voice. I stood up with the phone pressed to my ear, listening to every word he said. I couldn’t believe that it was him, but why was he panicking? What had they done this time to separate us? I had to find out; I couldn’t just leave the country without him.

“(YN)? Are you there?”

“Yes, yeah, Justin-“

I could barely get anymore words out of my mouth. I didn’t know what to do, what to say, or how to approach this situation. But if what he said, is what we needed to do, then I wasn’t about to waste time crying to him.

“Yes?” he said quietly.

“I just- I love you.” My voice trailed off.

“I love you too baby. I’ll see you soon, I promise.”

The line went blank and I placed my phone on the desk. I could barely think because my thoughts were so jumbled. I have to get to Canada, that was my only thought at the moment. I ran downstairs as I stuffed my phone in my bra and grabbed Pattie’s arm as soon as I found her. She looked at me like I was crazy, but I just needed to get her out of here, along with the twins.

“Pattie, go to Canada, right now and take the twins with you.” I said as I pulled her arm.

“What are you talking about? Are you crazy?”

“You have to leave now! You’re staying with your parents.”

I yanked her arm and found Fredo right away. Of course, I didn’t have any time to explain, so I just made up a random quick story to tell the both of them.

“Can you just tell everyone that it was an emergency? You know how to lock the house up and everything right?”

“Y-Yeah, just call me later or something.”

I grabbed the twins and let Pattie carry one of them. We didn’t even grab any clothes for them; we just kinda all got in the car and headed to the airport. The twins were anxious and wouldn’t stop asking questions.

“Where we going?” Lyric asked.

“You are going to visit great grandma and grandpa for a little bit.”

They wouldn’t stop whining about their party as we went to the airport. We weren’t recognized as we sneaked in and got to me and Justin’s private jet. We informed the airport and everything, so that they knew all about it. When I let Pattie take them, they cried and begged for me, not wanted to let go of my arms. I tried my best to hold everything together; hold myself together.

“Babies, mommy will see you soon, and I’ll have daddy too.”

That cheered them up somewhat, not really, but I had to let them go. And they had to let me go. I ran straight back to the car and headed to the only place I knew where to go. If Justin was anywhere, he was probably there. Yes, I wasn’t listening to him about going to Canada, but I needed to find him first. I couldn’t believe that these horrible people came back into our lives after 4 years. We had everything sorted out, and if Justin hadn’t done this that one time, we wouldn’t be in this situation.

“Justin! I’m home.” I yelled cheerily as I walked through the door.

It had been such a long day at the studio, I just wanted to cuddle up next to Justin and fall asleep in his arms. I walked across the house and found him standing in the living room with a few men. I had no idea who they were, but they weren’t good news. Justin looked worried as he shot his eyes over to me.

“I’ll find a way.” He said quietly to the main man.

They glared at him and turned to walk out of our house. I stared at them as they left and they just looked me up and down and left. I stared at the door, making sure that they did leave before I said anything to Justin. I turned back to him and parted my lips slightly.

“What the hell was that?” I asked as I walked right up to him.

I was just inches away from him, our chests practically touching. We just got back together and all of a sudden I come home to these random scary bulky men standing in my living room. I could tell that Justin was trying to avoid the topic as we sat down, but I kept going back to it.

“Look, I don’t want anything to happen to you baby. I love you so much, and those men, they want something from me…”

His voice trailed off and he looked away from me. For once in my life, I had seen Justin actually scared. I’d never seen him look like this before; he looked extremely scared of something.

“Justin, what did you do?”

I arrived at the secluded building and used my ID to get in past the guards in the front. I was escorted upstairs to the very top floor, where I knew that evil man was. When I entered his office, it was like a presence of evil surrounding me. I could feel it as the hairs on the back of my neck rose.

“I’ve been expecting you.” He said quietly.

No, it was not like one of those movies where the evil guy turns around in his chair and smirks at you crazily. It was more like he was already turned to me and he was writing on some papers. I mean he was head of this little- well huge- gang; he did have things to do too.

“Where the hell is Justin?” I yelled.

The guards grabbed my arms and held me back from jumping on him. God, I just wanted to tackle him and strangle him to death. This guy was on my nerves, and had been for the past 4 years.

“Justin, Justin, Justin… The more important question should be what will happen to you because of Justin?”

I glared at him. Great, now I had gotten myself in trouble because I didn’t listen to Justin. Yep, if this guy didn’t kill me, Justin was going to, that was for sure. Gosh, he’d be so pissed if he knew that I was here right now. I wondered where he was actually.

“Listen, it’s been 4 years, and everything Justin did was a mistake. He was dumb and young when he made that horrible deal, what do you want with him now?” I pleaded.

“Darling (YN)… Do you know how much you are worth? We can’t have this kind of stuff; you know how this business works. Do you really think that I would let Justin off so easy? He owes me his life, and you and I both know that. That’s life sweetheart, and with Justin Bieber taking from me and not repaying, the punishment won’t be so lenient.”

I stared at him with anger and pain in my eyes. I hadn’t seen Justin in days, and I had no idea where he was, but all I knew was that he was going to be in trouble with more than just this guy when I got home. He obviously wasn’t here, but I couldn’t leave and go find him either way. This guy had threatened and tore apart my family one to many times, and I had to somehow get him away from my family.

“Look, I’ll give you whatever you want. Money? Is that what you want? I have plenty, take it. Just leave my family alone.” I begged.

“You really want to know what I want? I actually have something in mind, now that you’re here. I want more than money. Someone has to pay, and if Justin can’t, than it has to be you or your kids. That way, Justin will understand that this business is serious.”

I thought about it. If it had to be me or my kids, than I’d have to give up my life. Justin wouldn’t have to deal with any more of this, and my kids would be safe behind closed doors. Yes, I’d be giving up everything because of one mistake Justin made, but it was the only way.

The Second Time Around: 7.

Hi guyssss. Sorry for not posting in awhile but here you are now! Comment for more please.

Remember that paragraphs in italics mean that it was just a flashback.

Chapter 7:

May 7th, 2017

7:00am

 

“(YN)… (YN) wake up.”

I slowly squinted my eyes open to see Pattie standing in front of me. I looked down and melody wasn’t in my lap anymore. I immediately got worried and shot up, sitting straight up and looking left and right.

“Don’t worry, Mel is sleeping upstairs. I put her there earlier, are you okay?”

“Yeah, I guess.”

“Come inside, I made coffee.”

I followed Pattie inside and to the kitchen. I had the biggest headache of my life as I sat in the stool and drank my coffee. I rubbed my temples gently and tried to ease some of the pain as I took a few advil.

“Hey Pattie, will you do me a favor?” I asked.

“Anything.”

“Can you watch the twins while I go out?”

“Sure honey.”

I thanked her before quietly sneaking upstairs and putting on some clothes. I needed to get out of the house, for one, and for two, I needed to get help finding Justin. I headed out to the garage and grabbed some keys before getting into the car and heading to the police station. My heart was racing as I drove. Maybe he got arrested? Doubt it, because he’d bail himself out, but still. If he got arrested, I’d be kind of relieved; I mean at least he’s not missing! Even thought that sounds absolutely crazy of me to say that…

I walked into the police station and right up to the front desk. I waited for the lady to get off of the phone before talking to her. She looked like a nice officer too.

“Can I help you miss?” she sweetly asked.

“Yes, I need to report my fiancé Justin Bieber missing.”

I could barely speak without my voice cracking. Saying his name physically and mentally hurt me. She wrote something down on a little notepad and looked back up at me.

“How long has he been gone?”

“About 8 hours.” I said.

Wow, it’d only been 8 hours… It felt like it had been at least a week. This was way hard for me, just standing there and talking to her about Justin missing.

“Sorry miss, we can’t send out a missing person’s report until they’ve been missing for at least 24 hours.” She replied.

“What do you mean? I need to find him.” I said loudly, just below a yell.

“I’m sorry, but we can’t help you. If you come back tomorrow-“

“Tomorrow!? Tomorrow!? You’re fucking kidding right? I have two kids at home crying for their dad and your telling me to come back tomorrow?”

“Ma’am, please lower your voice, or you’ll be physically escorted out of-“

“No! You know what? Fuck you all, if you can’t help me I’ll find him myself!” I yelled.

I turned on my heel and walked out of the police station. I could feel my eyes watering. Yes, it’d only been 8 hours, but I missed my baby. I wanted him to be home, now…

I decided to go for a quick walk and maybe calm down before I drove. I didn’t want to do anything stupid, especially if Justin were to come back tonight. I tried covering my face to avoid fans or anything like that, but it didn’t work. I didn’t know how I was supposed to smile and talk to them, but I tried my best.

“Are you (YN)?” a girl asked me.

“Yes I am honey, would you like a picture?”

She nodded excitedly and I tried my best to smile and act happy. I signed a few autographs and took a few pictures with a group of girls around 17 years old. When I began walking back to my car, I got surrounded by paparazzis. I covered my face with my purse as best I could and tried avoiding their questions, and then I had to stand up for myself and say something, because I couldn’t stand it anymore.

“(YN)! (YN) over here! Why were you crying!?” some girl yelled.

“Stay out of my fucking business.” I yelled back as I got into my car.

I backed out slowly, making sure not to hit anyone, and drove away quickly. Ugh, this would be all over the news, but whatever. I just wanted to get home now. I drove as fast as I could with the speed limit and eventually got home. I walked inside to hear the twins both crying and having fits. Pattie was trying to calm them down, but she looked stressed out. Wow, I had been gone 2 hours; it was already 9:30am.

“Mel! Lyric! What is the matter?” I yelled over their screams.

They both came running to me and hugged my legs. Pattie stood up and followed behind them and stood in front of me with her arms folded across her chest.

“Finally you’re home. They haven’t stopped crying since you left, they want Justin.” She said.

I looked down at both of their faces. They had puffy eyes with streaks from their tears all the way down their face. They hadn’t gone a day without talking to Justin, literally. This must’ve killed them; I could only imagine what their thoughts were.

“Listen,” I said kneeling down, “How about we give Grandma a break and be quiet for her for awhile. Grandmas head hurts and we don't want that, now do we? Plus, guess what tomorrow is?” I smiled, trying to get them to do the same.

They didn’t reply, so I just finished my own sentence, “You’re guys’ birthday!”

“With daddy?” Lyric asked immediately.

Again, with the daddy questions, this sucked. At least they were quiet for .2 seconds. I didn’t say anything; I just stood up and looked over to Pattie. They began crying again as soon as I started talking to Pattie. Why can’t you just be here Justin?

“What are we going to do for their birthday?” Pattie asked.

“I guess we could have Fredo come over with his little boy and a few others of our friends. I mean Fredo’s the only one who has a kid, we don’t know very many people, but I’m sure we can manage.” I explained.

Yes, Fredo had a kid. He and his wife, yes wife, had a kid around the time we had ours. Of course they weren’t married then, but he got married that summer. So they’ve been married almost 2 years already. They had the cutest little boy, and he got along well with the twins. Besides that, we would have maybe Twist’s nieces and nephews and Za’s too. I just hoped that Justin would show up.

 

(Justin’s POV)

 

“(YN) is worth a lot to you, right?”

“She means the world to me. Look, I’ll pay you back, in any way. I’d made that deal when I was young and dumb; please just don’t do this to me now.”

“I need you to do me a favor. I’ll give you a choice. One, pay me, which you can’t afford. Or two, (YN)...”

I looked at him like he was crazy. Either way, I couldn’t win. I was so dumb when I even considered signing a contract with this man. Plus, I was disoriented, I wasn’t even sober. I couldn’t let him do anything to (YN), yet I couldn’t pay him back any other way.

My breathe hitched in my throat as I stared at this man. I couldn’t even speak; I couldn’t answer his questions. I had just left (YN) at the concert, and I couldn’t go back without leaving her again. I remembered telling her about this disgusting man that I made a deal with, I really regretted it. It was over 4 years ago, and now I was paying for it, and she was too.

“I won’t let you hurt (YN). Why are you doing this to me? Anything but my family, please.”

I leaned forward in my chair. He did have a lot of power, so I guarantee that he could have me killed, but still. He got a smirk on his face and leaned back in his chair.

“Then your life won’t be as happy as you perceive it to be. If you even gave me anything besides those two things, you won’t have a family anymore. Listen, it’s either her or your whole family since you can’t afford any other choices. Those two precious twins of yours and your bride to be; now they may not be happy with your decisions when they’re dead and gone.”

I stood up quickly and lunged towards him, only to be yanked back by two guards. I kept trying to rip this guy apart. I just wanted to grab his neck and shake him. He threatened my family, and there was no way that he was getting away with that. But at the same time, there was nothing that I could do about it.

“Don’t you dare fucking touch them!” I yelled back.

“Then I suggest you choose wisely.”

I drove along the highway with tears in my eyes. I couldn’t understand why I was put in such a position like this, why would they do something like this to me? And he only gave me a week to decide. I didn’t think that they could control me so well, after everything had been going so great. I had two gorgeous daughters and an amazingly stunning fiancée, and right when I was happy, they ripped it apart. I had to find a way back, somehow, without hurting my family.

They’d done this to me and (YN) before; tried to destroy our relationship, but we overcame it. But how was I supposed to explain this to her, if I ever got to see her again? She probably was worried sick by now, pacing the floors of our room and waiting for me to come home. I needed to get in contact with her, without being seen. For one, he had people watching me 24/7, and for two, there were too many paparazzis. They’d rat me out by plastering my face all over the news.

I stopped at a hotel about 45 minutes away from my house and checked in a room. I asked the front desk to please keep my staying there confidential for now, and they agreed. It was hard; staying in a hotel when I could be at home cuddling up next to (YN) right now. I had to find a way to get to her, to see her again. I couldn’t sleep; I started tossing and turning in the bed. I just wanted to hold her in my arms at least one last time, but never let go…

Seeing that I couldn’t sleep, I got out of bed and paced the floors. I had nowhere to go anymore; no one to turn to. How was I supposed to give up everything we had, just like that? I couldn’t just have my family destroyed because of my actions.

Even worse, my twins’ birthday was in two days. I couldn’t miss that for the world, I wouldn’t. I had to somehow be there; somehow I had to get back. If I dared to go to (YN) though, they’d have both of us killed.

Major Update.

Okay, so ignore my last post. I'm trying to delete it, but this stupid app won't let me! But anyways, I said ignore it because I decided not to delete this blog. It took a lot of convincing from multiple people about it, but I really realized how lucky I am to even have such a blog like this, and I don't wanna get rid of it just like that. So the blog will not be deleted, and the next chapter of TSTA will be posted tomorrow night. So in about 24 hours, seein we are all in different time zones. But anyways, I will continue to post and I hope that someone else will post to, because I need help on keeping everyone entertained!

Thanks for understanding and staying with me in this roller coaster! Love you all very much!

-Ana.

Sneak Peak

Not In It For The Fame- Sneak Peak
     ...I was on the bed on the verge of crying because I am so frustrated with everything! I feel like everything is starting to fall apart,and I know why. But there is no way I could be honest with Justin and tell him how I really feel.  What if he chose them?I heard Justin walk in the front door of the house with his group of friends. Justin walked up stairs to our bedroom and tried to open the door,but it was locked.
"Hey babe I'm home! Open the door."
"Just leave me alone..."
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing just go away I'll talk to you later."
I could here on of his friends speak in the background.
"Come on Justin just fuck her we'll go somewhere else since little princess-bitch is throwing a fit!"
Then Justin spoke.
"Hey! Don't you ever fuckin talk about y/n like that again!"
"....
...I knew all along that THIS was coming...


 

The Second Time Around: 6.

Make sure to check the dates!😘

Chapter 6:

May 6th, 2017

8:00pm

 

“Alright, now should we have some questions?” I asked the crowd.

They went wild and I cued the twitter session part of my concert. I had this at every concert, and it’d already been 12 months since the beginning of my tour. It’d been tough, but I’d gotten through it easily, especially now that Justin’s tour was over and he was only recording and writing. It seemed as if he was always busy writing or recording or with our kids or preparing for his next album or something to that extent. He had finished his 3rd tour with a bang and fans wanted more, but he decided to wait until the twins were at least 4 until doing another world tour. He said maybe a US tour or European tour now and then, but nothing big.

“Okay first question…” I looked up at the big board behind me, “are you going to be making a movie for one of your tours? Well, you caught me! For my next tour, I want it to be filmed so that I can share it with you guys!”

The crowd went wild and I couldn’t help but laugh. I continued to answer questions about my music until some other personal questions came in.

“Next question… How are the twins?” I said aloud as I smiled widely.

“Lyric and Melody are doing great, they have been hanging out with Daddy a lot so that I can get my work done but-“

The crowd’s screams interrupted my talking and I gave them a funny look before turning around on my heel. I saw Justin walking out on stage holding Lyric in one arm and Melody in the other. I couldn’t help but smile and walk up to him.

“Hi babies.” I said.

I gave them both kisses on the cheek and they buried their heads in Justin’s shirt. They were wearing headphones to block out all of the screams from my fans. Justin set both of them down and bent down with them as I turned back towards the crowd.

“Okay everybody, be quiet.” I said.

I bent down next to Justin, making sure that you couldn’t see under my dress, and took Melody’s hand. I slipped off her headphones once the crowd quieted and put the microphone up to her and asked her questions.

“Mel, what do you think of mommy’s concert?” I asked.

“Fun!” she yelled.

The crowd stayed quiet as they awe’d and cheered for Mel. Justin picked up Lyrics and stood next to me as we asked them questions. They could only answer with one or two words, because they were only 18 months yet.

“Can you guys sing your ABC’s?” Justin asked them.

They both sang them up to about G before they stopped. They still had yet to learn the rest, and we were working on that. Sadly, they knew mine and Justin’s songs better than their ABC’s. But it was cute when they’d hum along to the words and try to sing them by making noises. They were cute and I loved having them up on stage at my last concert, but soon they left and we continued with one more question from the fans...

“Last question… When are you getting married?”

I looked behind me to see Justin backstage smiling and giving me a thumbs up. We finally set a date, seeing he proposed to me over 3 years ago. We just hadn’t had time for a wedding lately, but now that the twins were getting older, we thought that now would be perfect.

“Actually, Justin proposed to me over 3 years ago and we just recently set a date. We’ve planned out our whole wedding, and I’ve picked out a dress, so we thought that next month would be perfect. Our wedding will be on June 20th, 2017.”

The crowd went wild and I giggled into the microphone. I wasn’t expecting it either when Justin ran out back out on stage and picked me up bridal style. I blushed as he carried me off of the stage slowly, walking backwards. I waved to the crowd and blew kisses.

“Thanks for having me tonight! This was the best last show of my tour!” I yelled.

Justin took me off of the stage and to our twins. I hugged them both and they were all smiley and talkative. Of course, no one could understand them, but they still attempted to congratulate me with kisses and hugs.

I had so many people ask me how I did it; giving birth so young to twins. It was easy; I just had a loving soon to be husband and family. They loved me, I loved them, and it was that simple. And when people would ask me about our crazy schedules, I’d just tell them that we managed to cope with it. I mean we fit in time for kids- didn’t we?

I went right back to my dressing room and changed, taking the twins with me. They were just so excited to be with me on tour that they were so jumpy and talkative. They didn’t really put sentences together yet, but they knew some of their ABC’s and numbers 1-10. When I was done changing into sweats and a tank top, we walked out and went to find Justin. I looked around, searching everywhere, but he was nowhere to be found. I ran into Scooter, which was odd because I didn’t expect to see him here.

“Hey, have you seen Justin?” I asked right away.

“No, I was actually going to ask the same question to you.”

“Oh, well why are you here?” I asked with a smile.

“I wanted to see your last concert!”

I gave him a hug and he greeted the kids the same way. We decided to look for Justin together, but we still couldn’t find him. This was really odd; maybe he had a surprise for me… He always did this to me, but he usually surprised me sooner than this. I looked back out on the now empty arena but there were just people taking things down. I walked over to the microphone and took it in my hands and looked around one last time.

“Justin Bieber, if you are in the arena, come find me because I wanna go home.” I announced.

I waited backstage with Pattie and Scooter and the twins for a few minutes, but no sign of Justin. I started freaking out on everyone possible, I mean where could he have disappeared to now.

“Daddy?” Lyric asked me.

I picked her up in my arms while Pattie held Melody.

“I don’t know where Daddy is Lyric. Maybe he’ll be at home.”

Pattie and I left the arena and drove home. Luckily my concert was in San Diego, so that we could drive home. I thought for sure that Justin would have called me, but nothing. I didn’t want to call him yet, not until the twins were at home and sleeping. Otherwise they might freak out and whine.

Pattie and I got home and put them in their PJ’s right away. I stayed upstairs with them to get them to go to bed while Pattie went downstairs and tried calling Justin.

“Mommy, I want Daddy.” Melody said.

“Me too Mel, you’ll see him tomorrow morning, okay?”

“Daddy now!” Lyric yelled.

“Honey, if you go to sleep right now, I’ll promise you that you can see Daddy tomorrow morning. Right when you get up, I’ll have Daddy up here to surprise you. Now get some sleep, or you won’t see daddy tomorrow.”

They both closed their eyes tight and I couldn’t help but laugh. If only Justin were here to see. I sang to them a little and before I knew it they were both passed out. The concert must’ve token a toll on the both of them; like it always did.

I walked downstairs quietly and saw Pattie sitting on the couch with the TV off. She looked concerned as she stood and turned to me and handed me my phone. Without any words, I dialed Justin’s number. I was expecting it to ring, but nothing. The only thing I heard was, ‘The number you have dialed has been disconnected.’

I turned to Pattie and swallowed hard. How was this possible? It was working properly earlier? I sat down and kept dialing. Pattie had to stop me and take the phone out of my hands. I didn’t know how to feel, but all I knew was that I had to find Justin before tomorrow morning for the twins. I made a promise, and I couldn’t break it.

“Maybe he just broke his phone.” I suggested.

“If you break your phone, it will still ring.”

“Maybe someone stole it and he disabled it and he went looking for it.”

Pattie put her arms around me and I felt my heart drop. We both knew that both of those scenarios didn’t happen. We both knew that somehow, Justin had disappeared out of nowhere. And no one saw him, which seemed even more impossible.

“Let’s just sleep on it, okay? He’ll show up tomorrow.” Pattie whispered in my ear.

I took a deep breath and nodded as I stood up. I headed back to me and Justin’s room and got ready for bed. It was different; standing in the bathroom and brushing my teeth alone. It was different as I put on my pajamas and didn’t see Justin standing across the room. Yeah, I’ve been alone like this before, but this time I didn’t know where Justin was. I laid down and covered myself in our blanket. I turned over to see an empty bed, with only me in it. This sucked, if Justin ever did this to me again, I think I would die.

I got into a half sleep, but I kept tossing and turning. I couldn’t sleep knowing that Justin was gone, it was hard. I just wanted to find him and hug him and never let go again. I didn’t know how I’d let him out of my site after this incident.

Instead of trying to get some sleep, I decided to step outside and breathe. I stepped on the back patio down by the pool and sat on the bench. I rocked back and forth slightly with the wind. It was sort of calming, but it wasn’t at the same time.

“Mommy?”

I looked over to see Mel standing in the doorway. I stood up quickly and she ran over to me. I held her in my arms and we sat down together on the bench. Luckily I had a light blanket to cover us both as she laid in my lap.

“Where is Daddy?” her soft voice whispered.

As I looked at her, I almost teared up. But I had to act tough in front of my kids, especially in a moment like this. She looked so much like Justin; I could barely look at her. She had his big brown eyes and his soft brown hair.

“Daddy went somewhere special.”

I didn’t know what to say to her. She didn’t reply though, luckily. I didn’t know how to tell a three year old that her dad was missing and nowhere to be found. I got lost in my thoughts as I sat there and stared at the calm pool water. He could be gone for days or even months… God forbid years, but it’s still possible. Days… Great, the twins birthday was in two days, and Justin wasn’t even here. If he didn’t make it to their birthday, that’d mean he’s probably never coming back.

The Second Time Around: 5.

If you don't already, you might wanna watch the dates in this story because I skip a lot in the next few chapters!

Chapter 5:

May 8th, 2015

4:00pm

 

“This is really nice, I love shopping with you!” I said to Pattie.

We sat down at a table in Caribou and waited for our drinks. The doctor here in Canada kept persuading me to walk around a lot now that I was due in a week. He said that it’d make the whole process of birth easier. I just wanted these babies out of me, NOW. Ugh they weighed so much and my back hurt and I hadn’t seen Justin in a month. The only good thing was that we Skyped every night and talked on the phone. My pregnancy was luckily going as planned, and only one more week until I got to see my babies.

“Here, I’ll go grab our drinks.” Pattie said as she stepped down from her stool.

I smiled and grabbed my phone to check it. Nothing from Justin yet. He said that he’d call me as soon as he landed in Michigan for his concert. Michigan was really close to Stratford actually, only like a 5 hour drive for Justin’s tour bus. He was going to come here tomorrow night after his second concert there. The doctor said that I could go any day now, just hopefully not today.

“Where do you want to go now?” Pattie said as she held the door open for me.

We both walked out of Caribou and down the street. We’d been shopping since 9:00am this morning and my feet hurt even more than usual.

“Maybe, Victoria’s Secret for a little while more?” I smiled.

“Alright.”

She smiled and we headed towards Victoria’s Secret. It was a decent walk, but I needed to make sure I walked a lot and exercised. It was nice, and the only thing that stopped me was a few fans. They walked up to me with huge smiles on their faces while bouncing around excitedly.

“Are you really (YN) (YLN) and Pattie Mallette?” one of them asked.

“That’s us.” I looked at Pattie who was smiling along with me.

“Can we take a picture with you?” they begged.

“Sure!”

We took a few pictures together; some of them funny and some of them just smiling. One girl asked to feel my stomach and I gladly let her; I really felt flattered when people asked. When she put her hands on my stomach the babies kicked too, I guess it was a treat for the both of us. She was so excited to just have seen me, she looked as if she was going to faint.

I talked to them for a few more minutes and listened to their stories about how they tried meeting me before and everything. They were all so funny and nervous, it was cute. I was about to take one last picture with another girl, but that didn’t exactly work out the way I planned because I had to stop and grab her shoulder. I bent over slightly and held my stomach. I felt slight pain, it wasn’t that big, but it hurt me to the point where I couldn’t walk.

“Are you okay?” Pattie asked frantically.

“I don’t think we’re gonna make it to Victoria’s Secret.” I breathed.

“Let’s get you home.” She rushed.

Luckily the car wasn’t far from there. The girl that I grabbed when I bent over helped me walk over to the car and I thanked her greatly. Pattie helped me in and ran to the other side and we drove quickly to the hospital. Obviously my contractions had started, and I could go into labor at any point in time tonight. I was scared, and Pattie was too. I needed Justin though, and he wasn’t answering any of my calls or Pattie’s. He must’ve started his concert and forgot about calling me before. That was weird, because he’d never done that before.

We arrived at the house Pattie helped me inside. I couldn’t go to the doctor until my contractions were 5 minutes apart, so I wouldn’t know until later if I was having these babies or not. They were about 45 minutes apart now, so there was absolutely nothing we could do yet. I called Justin constantly, but no answer. I just gave up and so did Pattie, because I might not go into labor for another day or so. He could be home before I did either way.

“Alright, is there anything I can get you?” Pattie asked.

“Just water’s fine. Can you pack a bag for the hospital just in case? Just my slippers and night gown and stuff.”

“Sure honey. I’ll be right back, just yell if anything new.”

I nodded and leaned forward a bit. Another contraction. Ugh, this sucked; I didn’t think it’d feel like this! It felt like period cramps, which I hadn’t felt in nine months. Pattie came back with my water before heading upstairs to pack a bag. I grabbed my phone from the table and dialed Justin’s number again. It rang a few times and I was praying that he’d answer.

“This is Justin, leave a voicemail and I’ll get back to you.”

Great, voicemail again. I guess it didn’t matter that much unless I was having these babies tonight; which no one knew yet. I set my phone back down and leaned back, trying to ease the pain somewhat. I started feeling less pain, but instead of pain, I felt wetness. Great, my water broke.

“Pattie!” I yelled.

“Yes!?” she yelled back as she came running down the stairs.

“We’re having these babies tonight.”

 

(Justin’s POV)

 

“’Cause everything’s gonna be alright, ight.”

I finished the song and opened my eyes to see the huge crowd. This was my second to last concert before I got to see my beautiful fiancée again. God, I missed her so much, and it’d only been a month. Besides her, everything on my tour was going great. Believe it or not, this tour was bigger than the last. It was amazing to see all the support from my fans still over the past years.

“Alright guys, now this next song means a lot to me, and I hope it does to you to.” I said.

I backed up and turned to find a stool next to Dan waiting for me. I sat down next to him and picked up my guitar. Tonight felt special to me, so I decided to do and acoustic version of Fall. We both began strumming but before I could sing, the music stopped and Scooter ran out on stage. I turned in my seat to look at him, he looked worried.

“Sorry to interrupt, but Justin,” he came closer to me and whispered in my ear, “(YN)’s going in to labor, right now.”

I backed away from Scooter and stood up. The smile on my face was huge, and I couldn’t believe it. I could barely move; I had no idea what to do now. I turned towards the crowd and threw my hands up in the air.

“I need to get to the hospital!” I yelled.

I took the microphone and all the chords off of my body and put them in Scooter’s hands before running off of the stage and looking for anyone who could get me out of here and to the airport. I found Kenny and I grabbed him and stopped him.

“Will you drive me to the airport?” I said frantically.

“Dude, you’re in the middle of your concert-“

“(YN)’s in labor!”

“Oh- sorry- let’s go!”

He pulled me through the crowd and out of the backstage doors. Fans were crowding everywhere with their cameras and signs, but I just focused on getting to a car. We couldn’t take our tour bus, but luckily Kenny had a rental car.

We both got in and buckled up quickly before flying to the airport. I was way too excited and I could barely contain myself. Finally, after some time, I was sitting in our private jet all by myself. Kenny stayed behind, but I needed to get to the hospital. The anticipation was killing me as I sat impatiently.

When my flight landed, I left the plane quickly and ran as fast as I could through the airport. I had to dodge a lot of people, and the ones I ran into, I apologized quickly to them and kept running. I was surprised that I didn’t get stopped by security by the time I got out. I looked left and right and tried to get a taxi as fast as possible before the mob of girls behind me caught up. I slammed the taxi door behind me just as the girls got out of the airport. They banged on the windows as we drove off.

“Where to?” the taxi driver asked.

“The hospital.” I said quickly.

“Something wrong?” he asked.

“I’m having twins.” I said with a smile.

He drove right there and when we stopped; I had to fumble with my wallet to find money. I was getting impatient trying to find a few dollars. I didn’t usually keep money on me, only my credit card. This literally sucked the life out of me; my babies could be being born right now and I would be missing it.

“It’s on me sir. Go have you babies.” He said as he turned around with a smile.

“Thanks, really.” I said quickly.

I stepped out of the taxi and ran into the hospital. I looked left and right a few times, looking for the front desk. I ran right up to the lady and placed my hands on her desk.

“(YN) (YLN), where is she?!” I yelled.

“Come with me.”

She stood quickly, knowing that I was in an obvious hurry. She brought me right to her room within a few seconds and I ran right to (YN)’s side and held her hand. She hadn’t given birth yet, but I could tell that she wasn’t too happy.

“Are you okay?” I asked right away.

“Does it look like I’m okay?” she said as she winced in pain.

I smiled slightly because I knew that I was finally back by her side throughout all of this. The only difference was that she was squeezing my hand pretty hard, it actually kind of hurt.

“Here sir, put tis on.” The doctor told me.

He handed me scrubs and a mask and I quickly put it them on before being back by (YN)’s side. I was so excited, and she had actually calmed down enough to greet me.

“Alright guys, I think we’re ready to deliver this baby.” The doctor said.

I bit my lip; this was scary for me too! I mean I wasn’t the one in pain or anything, but I still was worried. She squeezed my hand harder as the doctor told her to push. It seemed like forever, but before we knew it, both of our babies were born. The doctor’s laid them on (YN)’s chest for a minute before taking them to get them all washed up. (YN) laid back and closed her eyes; she still looked like an angel.

“Baby, you did it.” I whispered.

She opened her weak eyes and looked up at me with a smile. I leaned over and kissed her cheek before finding a chair and sitting down by her side.

Soon, our babies were brought back in the room all wrapped up in blankets. I looked at them with a smile as I was handed one and (YN) the other. We still hadn’t picked out names yet, and I had some in mind now. I looked up at (YN) and parted my lips slowly.

“She looks like a Melody.” I whispered.

She looked at me and a smile formed on her lips. I knew that she liked the name, and even better, she came up with the other.

“She looks like a Lyric...” she whispered back.

“Lyric and Melody… The perfect names for two perfect girls.”

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The Second Time Around: 4.

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Chapter 4:

Thursday, January 8th, 2015

3:00pm

(YCN) stands for your couple name

I slowly made my way down the stairs, holding Justin’s hand. I had gotten bigger since we got back, and it wasn’t easy to get around by myself. I felt so fat! Justin just kept telling me that I was pregnant, and I knew that, but seriously, this sucked. We were getting in the car, heading to the studio where the Ellen show was. I was excited to announce it to the world, and better yet, I didn’t have to wear such loose clothes anymore. Today, I wore a very lose outfit, trying to keep it simple.

On the way there, the car ride was quiet. My hormones were way out of control lately and I was either happy or sad or angry. I could tell that Justin was trying to avoid pissing me off today, to make sure that the show went alright, and it was working. So far, I was really happy today! I hadn’t complained about my huge belly or anything so far…

We arrived and walked inside with our guards around us. There were a few paps outside, but we ignored them with our heads down as we walked inside. Justin and I went back to a shared dressing room and sat down for a few minutes before we had to go on. I went to the bathroom about twice before we were told that it was time to go on. I actually had to leave Justin behind and I was supposed to go out by myself.

I walked out and my very first single played as I waved to the crowd and headed towards Ellen. She smiled and stood up and I hugged her loosely. We both sat down and waited for the applaud to go down before we began talking.

“(YN)! It’s great to see you again, how’ve you been?” she asked.

“Good, good! I’ve actually missed you! Haven’t seen you in forever!”

“I’m flattered, really. Well shall we just get right to it? The music, any news for us today?”

“Actually, I’ve recently been writing some songs and I’ve been thinking about releasing an album maybe this summer. Lots of features I’m thinking…”

The crowd clapped and cheered once more and we continued talking. I had butterflies in my stomach just thinking about telling everyone, and I knew that it was going to be time right after this commercial. I looked around, praying that this was going to go well. Because usually you talked to Ellen before the show and told her what you were going to talk about, but I didn’t.

The music came on and the camera zoomed into us, cueing that the commercial break was over. We were ending before talking about some of the features, so I knew what Ellen was going to ask me about next.

“So, have you thought about doing and features with your fiancé?” she smirked at me.

“I’m afraid that that’s private information, but just be expecting a lot of surprises.” I teased.

“Oh c’mon, can’t you give us any surprises today?”

“Actually, I have one for the crowd, and another for- well everyone.”

I turned in my seat as best I could to look behind me where Justin began walking out from behind the stage. He waved to the crowd before coming to sit next to me and hugging Ellen.

“That was their surprise,” she motioned to the crowd, “now where’s mine?”

I looked at Justin and smiled. He took a deep breath and intertwined our fingers, squeezing my hand slightly.

“We thought that the best way to announce this would be on national TV where everyone would see, so…” I said before I looked to Justin.

“Ellen, (YN) and I are pregnant, with twins.”

Her jaw dropped in a sort of smile. It seemed as if the whole room was silent, but it really wasn’t after a minute. Everyone began clapping and cheering. It was amazing to see everyone’s reaction to our news. Ellen stood up and we both did to hug her. She congratulated us both and after a few minutes of complete madness, the crowd became silent once more.

“Mind me asking, when are you due?” she asked.

“May 15th, I’m about 5 months along now.”

We continued to talk about my pregnancy and she asked so many questions. Even when there was a commercial break, she followed us backstage and questioned us even more. Our time was over and someone else was going out on stage, but Ellen was still interested in us. I was excited for the show to air the next day; soon everyone would know about our two little babies. The only thing no one would know yet, not even us, would be there names. We decided to figure that out when they were born. But for now, the wait was going to be forever until tomorrow.

The next morning came by faster than I thought, but still, I had to wait until 3:00pm until Ellen came on. If only it could come on faster. Although the fans at the Ellen Show were already going crazy on twitter talking about it. Other fans just said that they were pointless rumors, little did they know that they were wrong. I replied to a few of them and when they said: (YN) (YLN) IS FINALLY HAVING BIEBER'S BABIES, I replied with just a smiley face or something simple to that extent.

I had to sit around and watch old cartoons while eating cereal and Justin slept. He didn’t get sleep at night because I was always getting up to go to the bathroom. I felt bad, but I told him that he didn’t have to sleep in the same bed as me.

A few hours later, at around noon, Justin finally got out of bed. It was Friday today, and his next concert was on Sunday night, so he tried to get in as much sleep as possible. He was always behind on sleep during his tours; it sucked for the both of us. And in April, I had to leave him to go back to Canada with Pattie. I’d be 8 months pregnant then, and I couldn’t fly after that. And we both wanted our babies to be born in Canada, so Pattie was going to take care of me.

When 3 o’clock came around, I was more excited than ever. I sat on the couch and crossed my legs while Justin laid his head in my lap. I was just sitting down to have my second bowl of cereal; another plus about being pregnant is that I can set my bowl on my stomach while I ate! I waited impatiently for the show to come on and when it did, I waited for the part.

“Ready baby?” Justin asked with a smile as he looked up at me.

“Not really, but yes.”

We watched everyone in the audiences’ reaction and I couldn’t help but laughing. Justin and I just sat there with Ellen smiling. I couldn’t help but laugh at us, we looked like statues.

“Can you hand me my phone?” I asked Justin.

He grabbed his own before handing me mine from off of the table. I checked twitter to see what people were saying about the show. Ellen was trending, along with my name, Justin’s and (YCN)’s pregnant. That was a lot of trends for one subject. I checked out some of the tweets and read them aloud.

“Finally Bieber’s having babies for us… Can you just imagine how cute those two little girls will be?... Can’t wait until May, it’ll be the best month of my life… These tweets are really funny Justin.” I laughed.

“I know, I’m reading some myself. Justin Bieber’s reproducing? That’s fine with me… This is why I love my fans.”

We both laughed and I locked my phone and set it on my stomach. Justin and I were going to go through a lot, but I could tell that we would be able to handle it. We laid on the couch together and watched movies all night while we read things on twitter to each other. We were trending for hours and each of them were different. It was pretty crazy.

“Justin, have you thought of any names for our girls?” I asked drowsily.

“I had a few in mind, but other than that I don’t really know. The names should correlate, you know?”

“Yeah, exactly, that’s why I have no idea. Maybe we’ll know when we see them.”

“Yeah, but just in case. Do you want unique exotic names, old fashioned, common names... what do you want?” Justin asked.

“Something unique that resembles us. Something that people will say ‘That makes sense why they would name there kids that.’ But not something weird where our kids are going to get made fun of.”

“Alright, I’ll keep that in mind. But for now, maybe we should try to get some sleep.”

“Good night baby.”

“Night.”

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The Second Time Around: 3.

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Tuesday, December 30th, 2014

7:00am

I woke up in a very comfortable bed with Justin’s arms wrapped around me from behind. I had barely any memory of last night when we landed and checked in our hotel; all I knew was that I was comfortable and not wanting to get up any time soon. I moved my hand down to my stomach and over Justin’s. I felt like my stomach had grown 4 inches since last night! It was sticking out pretty far, and every once in a while, you could feel a few little kicks. It was so amazing.

Just as I snuggled my face back into the fluffy pillow, I heard the door being opened and my eyes shot open to see two little monsters run into our room screaming.

“(YN)! Justin!” Jazzy and Jaxon yelled.

I smiled as they jumped up onto the bed and jumped around. I made sure neither of them fell on my stomach or anything, because that wouldn’t be good.

Justin groaned and they tackled him. I just sat up and laughed as I scratched my head and fixed my messy hair. Luckily I was wearing shorts and a big shirt and Justin was wearing some pajama pants. He messed around with his two little siblings while I stood up and stretched.

“Oh I missed you!” Pattie said as she came up to me and hugged me.

I avoided hugging her tight, because I didn’t want her to feel my stomach. I gave Jeremy a hug also and we stood and talked while Justin played with Jazzy and Jaxon. They were adorable, Jazzy was already 6 and Jaxon was 5. Jazzy was in kindergarten and Jaxon in pre-school, they grew up a lot faster than I thought they did over the time I didn’t see them.

“How have you guys been?” I asked them.

“Good, we haven’t seen you since thanksgiving! How are you?” Jeremy asked.

“Great! Justin and I don’t do much; with him on his tour and everything I just sit around and record and write music. I mean my tour isn’t for another two years.”

“Why are you taking so much time off?” Pattie asked.

“Um, I just need to get everything together. I’ll be releasing a few albums until them though!”

I tried to change the subject, and luckily it worked. We continued to talk until Justin interrupted us, greeting his parents with hugs. I wasn’t sure when we were going to tell them, but I figured that Justin would let me know.

“Who wants to go swimming!?” Jeremy yelled as the kids ran up to us all.

Justin picked up the both of them, one in each arm, and spun them around. Swimming… Then it hit me. We had to tell them now if we were going to go swimming. I turned to Justin and got his attention by tapping his arm.

“Uh, Justin.”

I fake coughed to make sure he knew where I was going with this. He got the memo and the smile disappeared from his face as he set his little brother and sister down. He took my hand in his and we intertwined our fingers.

“Mom, dad, we have some news.” Justin began.

His mom immediately dropped her jaw like she knew exactly what was going on. Jeremy just folded his arms across his chest and stood, waiting for an answer from us.

“You already got married secretly didn't you!?” Pattie said yelled.

“Wait what?” I said.

I looked at her with confusion and the smile disappeared from her face. I think Justin and I were both surprised at her answer. I sort of smiled while Justin reassured Pattie.

“No mom, (YN)’s pregnant.”

I couldn’t tell at all if they were happy or not. Pattie put her hands over her mouth and Jeremy shook his head. Either they were really pissed, or really happy.

“Look, we know that we’re young but-“

“Oh my gosh! I’m gonna be a grandma!” Pattie yelled with excitement.

A smile came across my face as Pattie grabbed me and hugged me tight. I barely looked over to see Jeremy congratulating Justin with a hug and a pat on the back. Pattie slowly backed away from me and I could still see how she excited she was as she jumped up and down.

“Remember when I asked you for advice a while ago on telling Justin about something? It was about this. I’m 18 and a half weeks now and my due date is May 15th.”

Pattie was still freaking out! Jeremy was too; they were both excited. Jazzy and Jaxon had no idea what we were talking about still, but right after we told them the bigger news, they would find out.

“Could this vacation get any better?” Pattie asked.

“Actually…” my voice trailed off.

“We’re having twins, and their girls.” Justin completed my sentence.

Pattie, once again, freaked out in excitement. We were all happy as we stood around talking; they both had so many questions! Then Jaxon spoke up.

“What’s going on?” he asked.

“I’m having two babies!” I said as I leaned down to talk to him and Jazzy.

“Where are they?” Jazzy asked.

“There right here.” I said as I rubbed my stomach.

“In your tummy?”

“Yup.”

They both seemed so amazed and everyone felt my stomach for the babies to kick. The two little ones were so full of questions, and I couldn’t really answer them all.

When we were done talking and touching my stomach, we decided to get ready to go swimming. I was just going to wear a sundress with my swimsuit under it. I didn’t feel comfortable at all with my stomach yet, because I was just getting used to it getting bigger each day. We all went down to the beach together, and it wasn’t just us 6 anymore; it was us including Pattie’s boyfriend and Jeremy’s wife. Pattie had been dating Chris for a while now, and he was a pretty nice guy.

I sat down in a chair under an umbrella along with Pattie and Erin. We all sat chatting about pregnancy; they told me all of their little tricks that they used and everything about it. It was actually really helpful. We all only got up to put our feet in the water, I really didn’t feel like going in anyways. It was just nice to be here with the family with no guards and no one bothering us… that much. There were paparazzis of course, but they kept their distance. The girls and guys coming up to me and Justin apologized for interrupting us, but we didn’t mind that much.

When we got back to the hotel, it was already starting to get late. I just wanted to lie down in bed and watch movie. I wasn’t feeling the best and I felt really crabby. Ugh, hormones. I changed as soon as I got to the room, right after I took a quick shower to wash off my body. Justin went in after me and I laid in bed and turned on the TV. I didn’t want to start a movie or anything without him, so I waited and watched some news.

“Earlier today, Justin Bieber and (YN) (YLN) were seen in Bora Bora for a family vacation. Justin posted plenty of pictures on every account he has of the lovely family.”

Blah, blah, blah. I turned it because it wasn’t like I hadn’t heard it all before. I mean I hadn’t- but we were always on the news. Believe it or not, Justin was more famous than before. How in the hell is that possible!? I have no idea, but it’s happening. It was like he changed the way everyone looked at him and now he was more famous. I wouldn’t consider myself that famous, but the news thought different. Apparently, I was almost as famous as Justin, but I didn’t believe it. At least neither of us acted like it.

When Justin got out of the shower, he came and laid down next to me and we cuddled while watching a movie. Justin put his arm around me and made me feel comfortable as we laid there. I could barely pay attention to the movie; I was just lost in my thoughts. I glanced over at Justin and he looked so into it. I smiled and giggled a bit as I laid my head on his chest.

“What?” he asked.

“Oh nothing. So, when we get back, when are we going to tell them?”

“We could tell them in an interview or let them find out themselves?”

“Or better yet, tell them on Ellen? I have an interview with her scheduled the day we get back” I suggested.

“You’d want to do that?” he asked with a smile.

I nodded and laid my head back down on his chest. I actually would want to do that. It’d be nice and I’d love to see how the fans react. I’m sure that they would be happy about it; well most of them hopefully.