Sneak Peak

Not In It For The Fame- Sneak Peak
     ...I was on the bed on the verge of crying because I am so frustrated with everything! I feel like everything is starting to fall apart,and I know why. But there is no way I could be honest with Justin and tell him how I really feel.  What if he chose them?I heard Justin walk in the front door of the house with his group of friends. Justin walked up stairs to our bedroom and tried to open the door,but it was locked.
"Hey babe I'm home! Open the door."
"Just leave me alone..."
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing just go away I'll talk to you later."
I could here on of his friends speak in the background.
"Come on Justin just fuck her we'll go somewhere else since little princess-bitch is throwing a fit!"
Then Justin spoke.
"Hey! Don't you ever fuckin talk about y/n like that again!"
"....
...I knew all along that THIS was coming...


 

The Second Time Around: 6.

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Chapter 6:

May 6th, 2017

8:00pm

 

“Alright, now should we have some questions?” I asked the crowd.

They went wild and I cued the twitter session part of my concert. I had this at every concert, and it’d already been 12 months since the beginning of my tour. It’d been tough, but I’d gotten through it easily, especially now that Justin’s tour was over and he was only recording and writing. It seemed as if he was always busy writing or recording or with our kids or preparing for his next album or something to that extent. He had finished his 3rd tour with a bang and fans wanted more, but he decided to wait until the twins were at least 4 until doing another world tour. He said maybe a US tour or European tour now and then, but nothing big.

“Okay first question…” I looked up at the big board behind me, “are you going to be making a movie for one of your tours? Well, you caught me! For my next tour, I want it to be filmed so that I can share it with you guys!”

The crowd went wild and I couldn’t help but laugh. I continued to answer questions about my music until some other personal questions came in.

“Next question… How are the twins?” I said aloud as I smiled widely.

“Lyric and Melody are doing great, they have been hanging out with Daddy a lot so that I can get my work done but-“

The crowd’s screams interrupted my talking and I gave them a funny look before turning around on my heel. I saw Justin walking out on stage holding Lyric in one arm and Melody in the other. I couldn’t help but smile and walk up to him.

“Hi babies.” I said.

I gave them both kisses on the cheek and they buried their heads in Justin’s shirt. They were wearing headphones to block out all of the screams from my fans. Justin set both of them down and bent down with them as I turned back towards the crowd.

“Okay everybody, be quiet.” I said.

I bent down next to Justin, making sure that you couldn’t see under my dress, and took Melody’s hand. I slipped off her headphones once the crowd quieted and put the microphone up to her and asked her questions.

“Mel, what do you think of mommy’s concert?” I asked.

“Fun!” she yelled.

The crowd stayed quiet as they awe’d and cheered for Mel. Justin picked up Lyrics and stood next to me as we asked them questions. They could only answer with one or two words, because they were only 18 months yet.

“Can you guys sing your ABC’s?” Justin asked them.

They both sang them up to about G before they stopped. They still had yet to learn the rest, and we were working on that. Sadly, they knew mine and Justin’s songs better than their ABC’s. But it was cute when they’d hum along to the words and try to sing them by making noises. They were cute and I loved having them up on stage at my last concert, but soon they left and we continued with one more question from the fans...

“Last question… When are you getting married?”

I looked behind me to see Justin backstage smiling and giving me a thumbs up. We finally set a date, seeing he proposed to me over 3 years ago. We just hadn’t had time for a wedding lately, but now that the twins were getting older, we thought that now would be perfect.

“Actually, Justin proposed to me over 3 years ago and we just recently set a date. We’ve planned out our whole wedding, and I’ve picked out a dress, so we thought that next month would be perfect. Our wedding will be on June 20th, 2017.”

The crowd went wild and I giggled into the microphone. I wasn’t expecting it either when Justin ran out back out on stage and picked me up bridal style. I blushed as he carried me off of the stage slowly, walking backwards. I waved to the crowd and blew kisses.

“Thanks for having me tonight! This was the best last show of my tour!” I yelled.

Justin took me off of the stage and to our twins. I hugged them both and they were all smiley and talkative. Of course, no one could understand them, but they still attempted to congratulate me with kisses and hugs.

I had so many people ask me how I did it; giving birth so young to twins. It was easy; I just had a loving soon to be husband and family. They loved me, I loved them, and it was that simple. And when people would ask me about our crazy schedules, I’d just tell them that we managed to cope with it. I mean we fit in time for kids- didn’t we?

I went right back to my dressing room and changed, taking the twins with me. They were just so excited to be with me on tour that they were so jumpy and talkative. They didn’t really put sentences together yet, but they knew some of their ABC’s and numbers 1-10. When I was done changing into sweats and a tank top, we walked out and went to find Justin. I looked around, searching everywhere, but he was nowhere to be found. I ran into Scooter, which was odd because I didn’t expect to see him here.

“Hey, have you seen Justin?” I asked right away.

“No, I was actually going to ask the same question to you.”

“Oh, well why are you here?” I asked with a smile.

“I wanted to see your last concert!”

I gave him a hug and he greeted the kids the same way. We decided to look for Justin together, but we still couldn’t find him. This was really odd; maybe he had a surprise for me… He always did this to me, but he usually surprised me sooner than this. I looked back out on the now empty arena but there were just people taking things down. I walked over to the microphone and took it in my hands and looked around one last time.

“Justin Bieber, if you are in the arena, come find me because I wanna go home.” I announced.

I waited backstage with Pattie and Scooter and the twins for a few minutes, but no sign of Justin. I started freaking out on everyone possible, I mean where could he have disappeared to now.

“Daddy?” Lyric asked me.

I picked her up in my arms while Pattie held Melody.

“I don’t know where Daddy is Lyric. Maybe he’ll be at home.”

Pattie and I left the arena and drove home. Luckily my concert was in San Diego, so that we could drive home. I thought for sure that Justin would have called me, but nothing. I didn’t want to call him yet, not until the twins were at home and sleeping. Otherwise they might freak out and whine.

Pattie and I got home and put them in their PJ’s right away. I stayed upstairs with them to get them to go to bed while Pattie went downstairs and tried calling Justin.

“Mommy, I want Daddy.” Melody said.

“Me too Mel, you’ll see him tomorrow morning, okay?”

“Daddy now!” Lyric yelled.

“Honey, if you go to sleep right now, I’ll promise you that you can see Daddy tomorrow morning. Right when you get up, I’ll have Daddy up here to surprise you. Now get some sleep, or you won’t see daddy tomorrow.”

They both closed their eyes tight and I couldn’t help but laugh. If only Justin were here to see. I sang to them a little and before I knew it they were both passed out. The concert must’ve token a toll on the both of them; like it always did.

I walked downstairs quietly and saw Pattie sitting on the couch with the TV off. She looked concerned as she stood and turned to me and handed me my phone. Without any words, I dialed Justin’s number. I was expecting it to ring, but nothing. The only thing I heard was, ‘The number you have dialed has been disconnected.’

I turned to Pattie and swallowed hard. How was this possible? It was working properly earlier? I sat down and kept dialing. Pattie had to stop me and take the phone out of my hands. I didn’t know how to feel, but all I knew was that I had to find Justin before tomorrow morning for the twins. I made a promise, and I couldn’t break it.

“Maybe he just broke his phone.” I suggested.

“If you break your phone, it will still ring.”

“Maybe someone stole it and he disabled it and he went looking for it.”

Pattie put her arms around me and I felt my heart drop. We both knew that both of those scenarios didn’t happen. We both knew that somehow, Justin had disappeared out of nowhere. And no one saw him, which seemed even more impossible.

“Let’s just sleep on it, okay? He’ll show up tomorrow.” Pattie whispered in my ear.

I took a deep breath and nodded as I stood up. I headed back to me and Justin’s room and got ready for bed. It was different; standing in the bathroom and brushing my teeth alone. It was different as I put on my pajamas and didn’t see Justin standing across the room. Yeah, I’ve been alone like this before, but this time I didn’t know where Justin was. I laid down and covered myself in our blanket. I turned over to see an empty bed, with only me in it. This sucked, if Justin ever did this to me again, I think I would die.

I got into a half sleep, but I kept tossing and turning. I couldn’t sleep knowing that Justin was gone, it was hard. I just wanted to find him and hug him and never let go again. I didn’t know how I’d let him out of my site after this incident.

Instead of trying to get some sleep, I decided to step outside and breathe. I stepped on the back patio down by the pool and sat on the bench. I rocked back and forth slightly with the wind. It was sort of calming, but it wasn’t at the same time.

“Mommy?”

I looked over to see Mel standing in the doorway. I stood up quickly and she ran over to me. I held her in my arms and we sat down together on the bench. Luckily I had a light blanket to cover us both as she laid in my lap.

“Where is Daddy?” her soft voice whispered.

As I looked at her, I almost teared up. But I had to act tough in front of my kids, especially in a moment like this. She looked so much like Justin; I could barely look at her. She had his big brown eyes and his soft brown hair.

“Daddy went somewhere special.”

I didn’t know what to say to her. She didn’t reply though, luckily. I didn’t know how to tell a three year old that her dad was missing and nowhere to be found. I got lost in my thoughts as I sat there and stared at the calm pool water. He could be gone for days or even months… God forbid years, but it’s still possible. Days… Great, the twins birthday was in two days, and Justin wasn’t even here. If he didn’t make it to their birthday, that’d mean he’s probably never coming back.

The Second Time Around: 5.

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Chapter 5:

May 8th, 2015

4:00pm

 

“This is really nice, I love shopping with you!” I said to Pattie.

We sat down at a table in Caribou and waited for our drinks. The doctor here in Canada kept persuading me to walk around a lot now that I was due in a week. He said that it’d make the whole process of birth easier. I just wanted these babies out of me, NOW. Ugh they weighed so much and my back hurt and I hadn’t seen Justin in a month. The only good thing was that we Skyped every night and talked on the phone. My pregnancy was luckily going as planned, and only one more week until I got to see my babies.

“Here, I’ll go grab our drinks.” Pattie said as she stepped down from her stool.

I smiled and grabbed my phone to check it. Nothing from Justin yet. He said that he’d call me as soon as he landed in Michigan for his concert. Michigan was really close to Stratford actually, only like a 5 hour drive for Justin’s tour bus. He was going to come here tomorrow night after his second concert there. The doctor said that I could go any day now, just hopefully not today.

“Where do you want to go now?” Pattie said as she held the door open for me.

We both walked out of Caribou and down the street. We’d been shopping since 9:00am this morning and my feet hurt even more than usual.

“Maybe, Victoria’s Secret for a little while more?” I smiled.

“Alright.”

She smiled and we headed towards Victoria’s Secret. It was a decent walk, but I needed to make sure I walked a lot and exercised. It was nice, and the only thing that stopped me was a few fans. They walked up to me with huge smiles on their faces while bouncing around excitedly.

“Are you really (YN) (YLN) and Pattie Mallette?” one of them asked.

“That’s us.” I looked at Pattie who was smiling along with me.

“Can we take a picture with you?” they begged.

“Sure!”

We took a few pictures together; some of them funny and some of them just smiling. One girl asked to feel my stomach and I gladly let her; I really felt flattered when people asked. When she put her hands on my stomach the babies kicked too, I guess it was a treat for the both of us. She was so excited to just have seen me, she looked as if she was going to faint.

I talked to them for a few more minutes and listened to their stories about how they tried meeting me before and everything. They were all so funny and nervous, it was cute. I was about to take one last picture with another girl, but that didn’t exactly work out the way I planned because I had to stop and grab her shoulder. I bent over slightly and held my stomach. I felt slight pain, it wasn’t that big, but it hurt me to the point where I couldn’t walk.

“Are you okay?” Pattie asked frantically.

“I don’t think we’re gonna make it to Victoria’s Secret.” I breathed.

“Let’s get you home.” She rushed.

Luckily the car wasn’t far from there. The girl that I grabbed when I bent over helped me walk over to the car and I thanked her greatly. Pattie helped me in and ran to the other side and we drove quickly to the hospital. Obviously my contractions had started, and I could go into labor at any point in time tonight. I was scared, and Pattie was too. I needed Justin though, and he wasn’t answering any of my calls or Pattie’s. He must’ve started his concert and forgot about calling me before. That was weird, because he’d never done that before.

We arrived at the house Pattie helped me inside. I couldn’t go to the doctor until my contractions were 5 minutes apart, so I wouldn’t know until later if I was having these babies or not. They were about 45 minutes apart now, so there was absolutely nothing we could do yet. I called Justin constantly, but no answer. I just gave up and so did Pattie, because I might not go into labor for another day or so. He could be home before I did either way.

“Alright, is there anything I can get you?” Pattie asked.

“Just water’s fine. Can you pack a bag for the hospital just in case? Just my slippers and night gown and stuff.”

“Sure honey. I’ll be right back, just yell if anything new.”

I nodded and leaned forward a bit. Another contraction. Ugh, this sucked; I didn’t think it’d feel like this! It felt like period cramps, which I hadn’t felt in nine months. Pattie came back with my water before heading upstairs to pack a bag. I grabbed my phone from the table and dialed Justin’s number again. It rang a few times and I was praying that he’d answer.

“This is Justin, leave a voicemail and I’ll get back to you.”

Great, voicemail again. I guess it didn’t matter that much unless I was having these babies tonight; which no one knew yet. I set my phone back down and leaned back, trying to ease the pain somewhat. I started feeling less pain, but instead of pain, I felt wetness. Great, my water broke.

“Pattie!” I yelled.

“Yes!?” she yelled back as she came running down the stairs.

“We’re having these babies tonight.”

 

(Justin’s POV)

 

“’Cause everything’s gonna be alright, ight.”

I finished the song and opened my eyes to see the huge crowd. This was my second to last concert before I got to see my beautiful fiancée again. God, I missed her so much, and it’d only been a month. Besides her, everything on my tour was going great. Believe it or not, this tour was bigger than the last. It was amazing to see all the support from my fans still over the past years.

“Alright guys, now this next song means a lot to me, and I hope it does to you to.” I said.

I backed up and turned to find a stool next to Dan waiting for me. I sat down next to him and picked up my guitar. Tonight felt special to me, so I decided to do and acoustic version of Fall. We both began strumming but before I could sing, the music stopped and Scooter ran out on stage. I turned in my seat to look at him, he looked worried.

“Sorry to interrupt, but Justin,” he came closer to me and whispered in my ear, “(YN)’s going in to labor, right now.”

I backed away from Scooter and stood up. The smile on my face was huge, and I couldn’t believe it. I could barely move; I had no idea what to do now. I turned towards the crowd and threw my hands up in the air.

“I need to get to the hospital!” I yelled.

I took the microphone and all the chords off of my body and put them in Scooter’s hands before running off of the stage and looking for anyone who could get me out of here and to the airport. I found Kenny and I grabbed him and stopped him.

“Will you drive me to the airport?” I said frantically.

“Dude, you’re in the middle of your concert-“

“(YN)’s in labor!”

“Oh- sorry- let’s go!”

He pulled me through the crowd and out of the backstage doors. Fans were crowding everywhere with their cameras and signs, but I just focused on getting to a car. We couldn’t take our tour bus, but luckily Kenny had a rental car.

We both got in and buckled up quickly before flying to the airport. I was way too excited and I could barely contain myself. Finally, after some time, I was sitting in our private jet all by myself. Kenny stayed behind, but I needed to get to the hospital. The anticipation was killing me as I sat impatiently.

When my flight landed, I left the plane quickly and ran as fast as I could through the airport. I had to dodge a lot of people, and the ones I ran into, I apologized quickly to them and kept running. I was surprised that I didn’t get stopped by security by the time I got out. I looked left and right and tried to get a taxi as fast as possible before the mob of girls behind me caught up. I slammed the taxi door behind me just as the girls got out of the airport. They banged on the windows as we drove off.

“Where to?” the taxi driver asked.

“The hospital.” I said quickly.

“Something wrong?” he asked.

“I’m having twins.” I said with a smile.

He drove right there and when we stopped; I had to fumble with my wallet to find money. I was getting impatient trying to find a few dollars. I didn’t usually keep money on me, only my credit card. This literally sucked the life out of me; my babies could be being born right now and I would be missing it.

“It’s on me sir. Go have you babies.” He said as he turned around with a smile.

“Thanks, really.” I said quickly.

I stepped out of the taxi and ran into the hospital. I looked left and right a few times, looking for the front desk. I ran right up to the lady and placed my hands on her desk.

“(YN) (YLN), where is she?!” I yelled.

“Come with me.”

She stood quickly, knowing that I was in an obvious hurry. She brought me right to her room within a few seconds and I ran right to (YN)’s side and held her hand. She hadn’t given birth yet, but I could tell that she wasn’t too happy.

“Are you okay?” I asked right away.

“Does it look like I’m okay?” she said as she winced in pain.

I smiled slightly because I knew that I was finally back by her side throughout all of this. The only difference was that she was squeezing my hand pretty hard, it actually kind of hurt.

“Here sir, put tis on.” The doctor told me.

He handed me scrubs and a mask and I quickly put it them on before being back by (YN)’s side. I was so excited, and she had actually calmed down enough to greet me.

“Alright guys, I think we’re ready to deliver this baby.” The doctor said.

I bit my lip; this was scary for me too! I mean I wasn’t the one in pain or anything, but I still was worried. She squeezed my hand harder as the doctor told her to push. It seemed like forever, but before we knew it, both of our babies were born. The doctor’s laid them on (YN)’s chest for a minute before taking them to get them all washed up. (YN) laid back and closed her eyes; she still looked like an angel.

“Baby, you did it.” I whispered.

She opened her weak eyes and looked up at me with a smile. I leaned over and kissed her cheek before finding a chair and sitting down by her side.

Soon, our babies were brought back in the room all wrapped up in blankets. I looked at them with a smile as I was handed one and (YN) the other. We still hadn’t picked out names yet, and I had some in mind now. I looked up at (YN) and parted my lips slowly.

“She looks like a Melody.” I whispered.

She looked at me and a smile formed on her lips. I knew that she liked the name, and even better, she came up with the other.

“She looks like a Lyric...” she whispered back.

“Lyric and Melody… The perfect names for two perfect girls.”

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The Second Time Around: 4.

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Chapter 4:

Thursday, January 8th, 2015

3:00pm

(YCN) stands for your couple name

I slowly made my way down the stairs, holding Justin’s hand. I had gotten bigger since we got back, and it wasn’t easy to get around by myself. I felt so fat! Justin just kept telling me that I was pregnant, and I knew that, but seriously, this sucked. We were getting in the car, heading to the studio where the Ellen show was. I was excited to announce it to the world, and better yet, I didn’t have to wear such loose clothes anymore. Today, I wore a very lose outfit, trying to keep it simple.

On the way there, the car ride was quiet. My hormones were way out of control lately and I was either happy or sad or angry. I could tell that Justin was trying to avoid pissing me off today, to make sure that the show went alright, and it was working. So far, I was really happy today! I hadn’t complained about my huge belly or anything so far…

We arrived and walked inside with our guards around us. There were a few paps outside, but we ignored them with our heads down as we walked inside. Justin and I went back to a shared dressing room and sat down for a few minutes before we had to go on. I went to the bathroom about twice before we were told that it was time to go on. I actually had to leave Justin behind and I was supposed to go out by myself.

I walked out and my very first single played as I waved to the crowd and headed towards Ellen. She smiled and stood up and I hugged her loosely. We both sat down and waited for the applaud to go down before we began talking.

“(YN)! It’s great to see you again, how’ve you been?” she asked.

“Good, good! I’ve actually missed you! Haven’t seen you in forever!”

“I’m flattered, really. Well shall we just get right to it? The music, any news for us today?”

“Actually, I’ve recently been writing some songs and I’ve been thinking about releasing an album maybe this summer. Lots of features I’m thinking…”

The crowd clapped and cheered once more and we continued talking. I had butterflies in my stomach just thinking about telling everyone, and I knew that it was going to be time right after this commercial. I looked around, praying that this was going to go well. Because usually you talked to Ellen before the show and told her what you were going to talk about, but I didn’t.

The music came on and the camera zoomed into us, cueing that the commercial break was over. We were ending before talking about some of the features, so I knew what Ellen was going to ask me about next.

“So, have you thought about doing and features with your fiancé?” she smirked at me.

“I’m afraid that that’s private information, but just be expecting a lot of surprises.” I teased.

“Oh c’mon, can’t you give us any surprises today?”

“Actually, I have one for the crowd, and another for- well everyone.”

I turned in my seat as best I could to look behind me where Justin began walking out from behind the stage. He waved to the crowd before coming to sit next to me and hugging Ellen.

“That was their surprise,” she motioned to the crowd, “now where’s mine?”

I looked at Justin and smiled. He took a deep breath and intertwined our fingers, squeezing my hand slightly.

“We thought that the best way to announce this would be on national TV where everyone would see, so…” I said before I looked to Justin.

“Ellen, (YN) and I are pregnant, with twins.”

Her jaw dropped in a sort of smile. It seemed as if the whole room was silent, but it really wasn’t after a minute. Everyone began clapping and cheering. It was amazing to see everyone’s reaction to our news. Ellen stood up and we both did to hug her. She congratulated us both and after a few minutes of complete madness, the crowd became silent once more.

“Mind me asking, when are you due?” she asked.

“May 15th, I’m about 5 months along now.”

We continued to talk about my pregnancy and she asked so many questions. Even when there was a commercial break, she followed us backstage and questioned us even more. Our time was over and someone else was going out on stage, but Ellen was still interested in us. I was excited for the show to air the next day; soon everyone would know about our two little babies. The only thing no one would know yet, not even us, would be there names. We decided to figure that out when they were born. But for now, the wait was going to be forever until tomorrow.

The next morning came by faster than I thought, but still, I had to wait until 3:00pm until Ellen came on. If only it could come on faster. Although the fans at the Ellen Show were already going crazy on twitter talking about it. Other fans just said that they were pointless rumors, little did they know that they were wrong. I replied to a few of them and when they said: (YN) (YLN) IS FINALLY HAVING BIEBER'S BABIES, I replied with just a smiley face or something simple to that extent.

I had to sit around and watch old cartoons while eating cereal and Justin slept. He didn’t get sleep at night because I was always getting up to go to the bathroom. I felt bad, but I told him that he didn’t have to sleep in the same bed as me.

A few hours later, at around noon, Justin finally got out of bed. It was Friday today, and his next concert was on Sunday night, so he tried to get in as much sleep as possible. He was always behind on sleep during his tours; it sucked for the both of us. And in April, I had to leave him to go back to Canada with Pattie. I’d be 8 months pregnant then, and I couldn’t fly after that. And we both wanted our babies to be born in Canada, so Pattie was going to take care of me.

When 3 o’clock came around, I was more excited than ever. I sat on the couch and crossed my legs while Justin laid his head in my lap. I was just sitting down to have my second bowl of cereal; another plus about being pregnant is that I can set my bowl on my stomach while I ate! I waited impatiently for the show to come on and when it did, I waited for the part.

“Ready baby?” Justin asked with a smile as he looked up at me.

“Not really, but yes.”

We watched everyone in the audiences’ reaction and I couldn’t help but laughing. Justin and I just sat there with Ellen smiling. I couldn’t help but laugh at us, we looked like statues.

“Can you hand me my phone?” I asked Justin.

He grabbed his own before handing me mine from off of the table. I checked twitter to see what people were saying about the show. Ellen was trending, along with my name, Justin’s and (YCN)’s pregnant. That was a lot of trends for one subject. I checked out some of the tweets and read them aloud.

“Finally Bieber’s having babies for us… Can you just imagine how cute those two little girls will be?... Can’t wait until May, it’ll be the best month of my life… These tweets are really funny Justin.” I laughed.

“I know, I’m reading some myself. Justin Bieber’s reproducing? That’s fine with me… This is why I love my fans.”

We both laughed and I locked my phone and set it on my stomach. Justin and I were going to go through a lot, but I could tell that we would be able to handle it. We laid on the couch together and watched movies all night while we read things on twitter to each other. We were trending for hours and each of them were different. It was pretty crazy.

“Justin, have you thought of any names for our girls?” I asked drowsily.

“I had a few in mind, but other than that I don’t really know. The names should correlate, you know?”

“Yeah, exactly, that’s why I have no idea. Maybe we’ll know when we see them.”

“Yeah, but just in case. Do you want unique exotic names, old fashioned, common names... what do you want?” Justin asked.

“Something unique that resembles us. Something that people will say ‘That makes sense why they would name there kids that.’ But not something weird where our kids are going to get made fun of.”

“Alright, I’ll keep that in mind. But for now, maybe we should try to get some sleep.”

“Good night baby.”

“Night.”

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Tuesday, December 30th, 2014

7:00am

I woke up in a very comfortable bed with Justin’s arms wrapped around me from behind. I had barely any memory of last night when we landed and checked in our hotel; all I knew was that I was comfortable and not wanting to get up any time soon. I moved my hand down to my stomach and over Justin’s. I felt like my stomach had grown 4 inches since last night! It was sticking out pretty far, and every once in a while, you could feel a few little kicks. It was so amazing.

Just as I snuggled my face back into the fluffy pillow, I heard the door being opened and my eyes shot open to see two little monsters run into our room screaming.

“(YN)! Justin!” Jazzy and Jaxon yelled.

I smiled as they jumped up onto the bed and jumped around. I made sure neither of them fell on my stomach or anything, because that wouldn’t be good.

Justin groaned and they tackled him. I just sat up and laughed as I scratched my head and fixed my messy hair. Luckily I was wearing shorts and a big shirt and Justin was wearing some pajama pants. He messed around with his two little siblings while I stood up and stretched.

“Oh I missed you!” Pattie said as she came up to me and hugged me.

I avoided hugging her tight, because I didn’t want her to feel my stomach. I gave Jeremy a hug also and we stood and talked while Justin played with Jazzy and Jaxon. They were adorable, Jazzy was already 6 and Jaxon was 5. Jazzy was in kindergarten and Jaxon in pre-school, they grew up a lot faster than I thought they did over the time I didn’t see them.

“How have you guys been?” I asked them.

“Good, we haven’t seen you since thanksgiving! How are you?” Jeremy asked.

“Great! Justin and I don’t do much; with him on his tour and everything I just sit around and record and write music. I mean my tour isn’t for another two years.”

“Why are you taking so much time off?” Pattie asked.

“Um, I just need to get everything together. I’ll be releasing a few albums until them though!”

I tried to change the subject, and luckily it worked. We continued to talk until Justin interrupted us, greeting his parents with hugs. I wasn’t sure when we were going to tell them, but I figured that Justin would let me know.

“Who wants to go swimming!?” Jeremy yelled as the kids ran up to us all.

Justin picked up the both of them, one in each arm, and spun them around. Swimming… Then it hit me. We had to tell them now if we were going to go swimming. I turned to Justin and got his attention by tapping his arm.

“Uh, Justin.”

I fake coughed to make sure he knew where I was going with this. He got the memo and the smile disappeared from his face as he set his little brother and sister down. He took my hand in his and we intertwined our fingers.

“Mom, dad, we have some news.” Justin began.

His mom immediately dropped her jaw like she knew exactly what was going on. Jeremy just folded his arms across his chest and stood, waiting for an answer from us.

“You already got married secretly didn't you!?” Pattie said yelled.

“Wait what?” I said.

I looked at her with confusion and the smile disappeared from her face. I think Justin and I were both surprised at her answer. I sort of smiled while Justin reassured Pattie.

“No mom, (YN)’s pregnant.”

I couldn’t tell at all if they were happy or not. Pattie put her hands over her mouth and Jeremy shook his head. Either they were really pissed, or really happy.

“Look, we know that we’re young but-“

“Oh my gosh! I’m gonna be a grandma!” Pattie yelled with excitement.

A smile came across my face as Pattie grabbed me and hugged me tight. I barely looked over to see Jeremy congratulating Justin with a hug and a pat on the back. Pattie slowly backed away from me and I could still see how she excited she was as she jumped up and down.

“Remember when I asked you for advice a while ago on telling Justin about something? It was about this. I’m 18 and a half weeks now and my due date is May 15th.”

Pattie was still freaking out! Jeremy was too; they were both excited. Jazzy and Jaxon had no idea what we were talking about still, but right after we told them the bigger news, they would find out.

“Could this vacation get any better?” Pattie asked.

“Actually…” my voice trailed off.

“We’re having twins, and their girls.” Justin completed my sentence.

Pattie, once again, freaked out in excitement. We were all happy as we stood around talking; they both had so many questions! Then Jaxon spoke up.

“What’s going on?” he asked.

“I’m having two babies!” I said as I leaned down to talk to him and Jazzy.

“Where are they?” Jazzy asked.

“There right here.” I said as I rubbed my stomach.

“In your tummy?”

“Yup.”

They both seemed so amazed and everyone felt my stomach for the babies to kick. The two little ones were so full of questions, and I couldn’t really answer them all.

When we were done talking and touching my stomach, we decided to get ready to go swimming. I was just going to wear a sundress with my swimsuit under it. I didn’t feel comfortable at all with my stomach yet, because I was just getting used to it getting bigger each day. We all went down to the beach together, and it wasn’t just us 6 anymore; it was us including Pattie’s boyfriend and Jeremy’s wife. Pattie had been dating Chris for a while now, and he was a pretty nice guy.

I sat down in a chair under an umbrella along with Pattie and Erin. We all sat chatting about pregnancy; they told me all of their little tricks that they used and everything about it. It was actually really helpful. We all only got up to put our feet in the water, I really didn’t feel like going in anyways. It was just nice to be here with the family with no guards and no one bothering us… that much. There were paparazzis of course, but they kept their distance. The girls and guys coming up to me and Justin apologized for interrupting us, but we didn’t mind that much.

When we got back to the hotel, it was already starting to get late. I just wanted to lie down in bed and watch movie. I wasn’t feeling the best and I felt really crabby. Ugh, hormones. I changed as soon as I got to the room, right after I took a quick shower to wash off my body. Justin went in after me and I laid in bed and turned on the TV. I didn’t want to start a movie or anything without him, so I waited and watched some news.

“Earlier today, Justin Bieber and (YN) (YLN) were seen in Bora Bora for a family vacation. Justin posted plenty of pictures on every account he has of the lovely family.”

Blah, blah, blah. I turned it because it wasn’t like I hadn’t heard it all before. I mean I hadn’t- but we were always on the news. Believe it or not, Justin was more famous than before. How in the hell is that possible!? I have no idea, but it’s happening. It was like he changed the way everyone looked at him and now he was more famous. I wouldn’t consider myself that famous, but the news thought different. Apparently, I was almost as famous as Justin, but I didn’t believe it. At least neither of us acted like it.

When Justin got out of the shower, he came and laid down next to me and we cuddled while watching a movie. Justin put his arm around me and made me feel comfortable as we laid there. I could barely pay attention to the movie; I was just lost in my thoughts. I glanced over at Justin and he looked so into it. I smiled and giggled a bit as I laid my head on his chest.

“What?” he asked.

“Oh nothing. So, when we get back, when are we going to tell them?”

“We could tell them in an interview or let them find out themselves?”

“Or better yet, tell them on Ellen? I have an interview with her scheduled the day we get back” I suggested.

“You’d want to do that?” he asked with a smile.

I nodded and laid my head back down on his chest. I actually would want to do that. It’d be nice and I’d love to see how the fans react. I’m sure that they would be happy about it; well most of them hopefully.

The Second Time Around: 2.

Yes, this is the sequel to Blurred Perfection(: sorry if I lost you for a second! And sorry if its hard to read on the web version, I'm trying to get that changed ASAP!

Monday, December 29th, 2014

10:00am

"So where exactly are we going for New Year's anyways?" I asked Justin.

"Somewhere where we can have some peace and quiet with the family before we tell everyone." he smiled at me as we stopped at a stop light.

"Don't you think that they kind of already know- I mean look at me, I'm starting to get fat." I whined.

"You're not getting fat, you're pregnant."

"Ugh, I hate it sometimes."

We continued our little chit-chat until we arrived at the doctor's office. Our monthly check-up was today and I was excited, so was Justin. Today was the day that we found out the sex of our baby. I was so excited that I could barely hold it in. The only thing that really sucked was that I was getting bigger, which meant that until we told people, I had to wear really baggy clothes so that you couldn't tell.

We walked into the doctor's office and waited until my name was called. I was all jumpy and happy as I laid down on the bed and waited for the doctor to come in. Justin sat next to me and held my hand.

"I feel like we should have told your family when we visited." I said with a frown on my face.

"Don't worry baby, we'll tell them tomorrow when we all get settled in our suites."

Just as he sent me a smile, the doctor walked in and smiled at us. She sat down in her chair and set down her clipboard before turning to us and smiling.

"How are my favorite patients today?" she asked with a smile as she put on her gloves.

"Good, excited." I answered.

"That's good! And any worries lately?"

"Nope!"

She nodded and grabbed the jelly that she was going to use. I took a deep breath and squeezed Justin's hand tight.

"Alright, I'm just going to have you lift your shirt..."

She helped me moved my shirt up just to right below my breasts. I waited a few seconds before feeling the coldness being spread all over my stomach. I jumped a little and she smiled down at me. I waited until the screen next to me flashed on and little figures moved around. Of course I couldn't make out anything out of the blue blob on the screen, but she could. She looked at the screen with a funny look and studied it closer.

"Is everything okay?" Justin asked worriedly.

"Yeah, I just-" her voice trailed off.

I closed my eyes tight and prayed that nothing was wrong with my baby. Now I was feeling uncomfortable. She turned back to us and smiled.

"I have great news, your baby is healthy! Or should I say your babies are healthy!"

She smiled widely and I turned to Justin. We both had surprised looks on our faces. Our looks turned into wide smiles and Justin stood up immediately.

"What are they?" Justin asked.

"Let's see..." she moved it around a bit before turning back to us, "Looks like it's two girls! But you never know, so I'm not 100% positive. But be expecting girls!"

I smiled brightly and so did Justin. In the past months that we'd talked about it, I wanted a girl and he wanted a boy. I wanted a girl just so that I could dress her up in cute things and Justin wanted a boy so that he could grow up to be like him, only better. But he seemed happy with two girls.

"Is that okay Justin?" I asked.

"That's more than okay!" he practically yelled.

He closed his eyes with a big smile on his face and I laughed. I couldn't believe that we were having TWO girls! I was still in shock, I mean this was a huge deal.

When we left the doctor's, we held hands and ran to the car. I was all smiles in the car along with Justin as we headed home to grab our bags.

When we got back to the house, I started thinking. We were going to be with Justin's family and tell them, but what about mine?.. Of course I didn't have any contact with my family whatsoever, but I had something else in mind. As we walked out of the door carrying our bags to the van, I stopped Justin and looked into his eyes.

"Hey, can I stop somewhere before we leave?" I asked.

"Sure, do you want me to come with?"

"Uh, I'll do this one on my own, but you can stay in the car?" I suggested.

He agreed and we headed to my destination. I told the driver where to go and Justin was still clueless until we turned in through the gates. I looked out of the window and Justin held my arm. He knew exactly what I was doing now, and he didn't say a word.

I stepped out of the car and walked down the long row. The wind blew through my hair and I inhaled a deep breath before stopping before my mom's grave. I stood in silence with my hands together, like I was waiting for her to speak first.

"Hi mom. I just came to tell you that I'm pregnant. You probably know by now, but hey, I'm having twin girls. I just wish you could be here to see me and how much I've accomplished. I know that you'd be proud..." my voice trailed off.

I blinked away my tears and they fell from my eyes to the soil, seeping in immediately. I knelt down and covered my face with my hands, wiping away my tears and trying to get rid of all of these emotions. I sat there for awhile before I felt two strong hands on my shoulders. I knew right away that it was Justin and I stood up and wrapped my arms around his neck. I nuzzled my face into the crook of his neck and stopped crying. Once I pulled away, Justin grabbed my hands and we headed back towards the car.

No words were said the whole way to the airport, I just laid my head on Justin's shoulder and he wrapped his arms around me. When we got to the airport, we held hands and headed to the jet that waited for us outside. When we got in, I laid my head down in Justin's lap for the whole flight.

"So... Are you going to tell me where we are headed for our little vacation?" I asked.

"Do you really want to know?" he said.

"Yes!" I said.

"Fine! We are headed to Bora Bora."

My face lit up and I smiled up at him as I played with the chain around his neck. He ran his fingers through my hair and leaned down and kissed my forehead.

"Guess what?" he asked me.

"What?"

"We're having twins!" he yelled.

"And their girls!"

We both laughed and he placed his hand over mine on my stomach. We still both never got over the fact that this time next year, our little ones would be crawling all around our house, hopefully. I took a deep breath and felt a small kick on my stomach. I quickly turned my attention to Justin and he did to me.

"Did you feel that too?!" he asked.

I nodded and we both freaked out. It was the first time we had felt our babies kick.

The Second Time Around: 1.

Hey guys. I'll be posting this story on here every other day. And on the days I don't post, I'll post twisted on the other blog!

Tuesday, October 21st, 2014

5:00pm

"If he really loves you, he'll understand and be supportive. I'm sure that he'll stay by your side no matter how big this is. I mean you guys are getting married. Mind me asking, but what is it anyways?"

"It's- nothing. I just need some advice."

"Well (YN), you can always come to me when you need advice, especially on Justin. I am his mom."

"Thanks Pattie."

I gave her a tight squeeze before letting go and standing up to leave. I walked out of the coffee shop and headed back to our house. Justin wouldn't be mad, he would be happy! How dumb of me to think that he would ever be mad about something like this. I just wondered how everyone else would react. I hadn't told a soul since I found out myself. But how long until I tell Justin?

I thought about the day I had asked Pattie. That was about a few weeks ago to the day. I was afraid to confront Justin about it still. But Pattie was right, he'll be supportive and understand... Right? Today was the day. Today was the day to tell him exactly what was going on with me. He'd been bugging me for the past month because I was acting funny, and now he'd know why. I made sure that I got to tell him on a day that he was happy and hyper, because then the turn out would be better.

I sat on the couch anxiously waiting for him to get back from the studio where he was learning new choreography for his tour. I stood up and sat down constantly at every noise that was made in the house. I tried shaking my nervousness off, but it was just so hard to do! Finally I heard the door open and heard Justin singing one of his new songs. I smiled and stood up and headed towards the door. When his eyes landed on me, he smiled widely.

Without any words, I ran into his arms and he spun me around. I was glad that he was home, finally. I erupted in laughter as he set me down.

"Someone's excited today..." he said with a giggle.

"That's because I just love you so much!" I said.

We headed towards the kitchen together and I held onto his arm. I let go and sat on the counter next to him as he dug through the fridge and the cupboards.

"Is there something you're not telling me?" he asked.

"Actually, yes."

I hopped off of the counter and smiled. He turned to me and I grabbed his hands. Instead of taking a serious approach, I decided to tell him using a fun and bubbly side of myself. I squeezed his hands and took a deep breath before speaking up.

"I'm... pregnant."

The smile from his face disappeared and I felt my heart drop. The only thing I could think was, wow, now he hated me. My stomach dropped and I let go of Justin's hands.

"Are you serious?"

Just then, a smile came across his face and he backed up a little like he was stunned. I nodded my head and he immediately wrapped his arms around me and held me tight. I felt relieved as we stood there together. He pulled away and I smiled up at him as he laughed a bit.

"So our baby is like in there!" he said as he brushed his hands across my stomach.

"He or she sure is!" I said with a giggle.

He was all smiles as he paced back and forth and was just so hyper. I couldn't help but laugh at him as he happily danced around.

"I really thought that you'd be mad, because we are only 20 and I just feel like it's too soon and-"

"No, never! I know that we are only 20 but just think about it. I'll be 21 when he or she is born and you'll almost be 21. And I can just see it, it'll be amazing. And we are already engaged at 20, this is the only step left."

Justin held his hands on my hips and lifted me up to sit on the counter. He was considering all of the good things, but what about reality?

"I know, I know. But what about the media and the world?"

"They'll have to accept it whether they like it or not."

"And what about your tour? It starts in less than a month and doesn't end until February of 2016!"

"Babies can travel. And for the first 4 or 5 months you can stay home with my mom and I'll visit as often as I can. After that, she or he can come with us. And as for you before it's born, you can fly in a plane up until your 8 months! This is going to be so fun! How far along are you anyways?"

"2 Months. I'm sorry that I've been lying about you about where I've been going, because obviously I've been going to the doctor's office for check-ups. I actually have one tomorrow if you wanna come, I mean I know you have your class-"

"Of course! I'll just tell them that it's important. When do we figure out the sex?" Justin asked.

"4 and a half to 5 months along." I squealed.

I was just happy talking about it with him. Finally I could tell someone and speak openly about it. And at least he wouldn't judge me like the rest of the world.

Wednesday, October 22nd, 2014

9:00am

"Well you're healthy, and your baby is... healthy! By the way, congratulations to the both of you, I'm very happy." our doctor said

She smiled widely at us and I smiled back along with Justin. He squeezed my hand and I wiggled around a bit. We talked for awhile longer before Justin and I left the doctor together. We covered up our faces, making sure people didn't recognize us as we ran to our car. I was all jittery and excited to tell people. Now, we were off to the airport with our bags. To Canada, where we were meeting up with his family. And you're thinking, 'oh cute, they're going to tell the family.'. But you're wrong. We decided not to tell anyone until we found out what we were having.